Am I still taking a break?
I have a list of places to apply/think, why would I ever work there? I have my resume mostly done.
Looking for big girl jobs is terrifying and exciting, in equal amounts.
I guess my break is done, I’m bored and still sleeping ten hours a night. 2 months ago
It does feel like this past school year didn’t happen. Wasn’t I sleep deprived and having emotional breakdowns every three weeks? I slept 10 hours every night for the past three nights and I feel fine, ready for the next thing.
My habits changed a lot in the past eight months. I want to keep doing what I was doing, instead of going back to reading a lot and enjoying my time at home. I still feel like I need to keep doing something, just for the sake of having something to do.
I’m nervous about a few things:
- I won’t have a full-time job
- And if I do, I’ll be really bad at it or hate it like I hated working at McD’s
- I’ll lose my friends
- I won’t make enough to pay my bills
- My car insurance is going to up astronomically and nobody will be able to afford it
- Things with my boyfriend will go south (which should be the least of my worries, just over three months in, we don’t have any sort of deal-breaking problems)
- The world will literally catch on fire, my family will disown me, I’ll get leprosy and live under a bridge in a gutter for the rest of my life 2 months ago
Things that happen the first day of being A Real Adult©: you get into a car accident.
But I did watch a movie and eat a box of mac and cheese and felt absolutely horrible after, but it was delicious.
Also, I have goals for seven parts of my life (financial, friends, work, personal, etc.) and I realized I picked up a bad habit this year. My main way of rewarding myself has become spending money for things I don’t need. I never used to spend this much (mostly because I didn’t have it) and I don’t feel like I’m getting what I’m spending, you know?
When I started my job, I felt like I was rolling in money all the time. Then I figured out I could spend more, and once you spend it, you don’t feel like you have anything except an empty checking account. 2 months ago
It’s so nice not to have anything real to do. I watched a movie, I just made coffee, me and my boyfriend are going out later.
Eventually, I’ll have to rejoin the rest of the world, but today is not that day. 3 months ago
Hot shower and a book in bed until I pass out at 10pm and not set any alarms and maybe I’ll wake up by noon and maybe wash my hair tomorrow, we’ll see. 3 months ago
I’m listening to music and sitting outside for a bit. 14 months ago
I can’t stay away. I thought this was what I needed, and maybe it still is. I only gave it two days, after all. But I need 43T right now. I need the wonderful, caring, supportive, and inspirational community. I need a place to turn when I reflect on March goals or losing weight or just about anything else. This is my comfort zone.
I can still work on the really serious things on my own. Ish.
So I “failed.” Oh well. I feel relieved to be back.
My apologizes for being so damn dramatic in the first place!2 years ago
Life is throwing me some major curveballs. As much as I WANT to be on 43T to help get through this time, I’m feeling like I need to figure things out for myself. I’ve always been the type of person that relies on the insight and opinions of others to make decisions, but this time it must come from within. I know I’ll be back (I can’t stay away from this place and all the amazing people here!) but I’m just not sure when.
Thanks again to all my subscribers and friends. I’ll see you again soon, I hope. 2 years ago
I’m finally giving myself a break.
I’m no longer to blame for everything that goes wrong, or went wrong or is wrong.
It’s ok to make mistakes and be human. God loves me this way and so will I. 5 years ago
I want to take a meaningful break. One that really recharges me. Not one in which I just veg in from of T.V. 5 years ago