take a break

I swear I have let go of so much.
I don’t try to understand it all anymore, and I feel lighter.
The Lord is willing, so why fight it? <3 4 years ago

I wish I could run away.
I hurt.
I’m lonely.
I need to pray, God is the only one who understands me. 4 years ago

God bless my aunt! Wish she wasn’t over 2,000 miles away :(

In the midst of family chaos,
‘Quality time’ is rare.
Do your best; let God do the rest-
ASAP – ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER.

It may seem like your worries
Are more than you can bear.
Slow down and take a breather-
ASAP – ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER

God knows how stressful life is;
He wants to ease our cares,
And He’ll respond to all your needs
A.S.A.P. – ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER. 4 years ago

Really. Need a break before i get sick, but I can’t stop my life…. 4 years ago

I’ve been trying to write this entry for a few weeks.
It still doesn’t say what I want to say,
but here it goes.

Once upon a time I was very orderly with my 43 things. I checked it almost daily.
Cheered back and was cheered.

I don’t like routine and was a little
tired of all the things that I want to do sitting on a list
undone and
staring me in the face.

So, I took a break.
Decided to spend a few days or weeks, in the moment.
Less “goal oriented.”

Just after that-a few days-things changed. I live in Virginia and my son attends Virginia Tech and I can’t begin to list the friends and family members that have been effected in some way by the tragedy. Our community here, without exception, changed instantly.

Continuing…
For hours, then days, then weeks, everything felt different.
All of us thought, spoke, and moved in a different way.
We saw life, youth, security, friendship, in a different way.

I didn’t feel like looking at 43 things, not then.
I didn’t know how to end the break, not now.
I didn’t know what my 43 things could be, not now.

A few weeks passed. Every day we worked to do our work.
Moving on.

And so, here I am now.
Back to 43things and feeling very behind.

So many unanswered comments-
So many cheers that I have not reciprocated.
I look at the list and feel a little overwhelmed and randomly pick something…

Now. I’ve said it and I will move on. Please forgive me if you’ve written a kind comment or given me a cheer and I didn’t respond.

I will.
Eventually. 5 years ago

Okay, maybe the break is over. I can’t get into details, still yet. But the break is over. 6 years ago

“If a man spends more time fixin’ himself up in front of the mirror than he does washing his pick-up truck, why that’s plain kooky.” 6 years ago

Will do this more often. 6 years ago

I’m going to try to participate more on the site. I essentially have just been “checking in” since late December, but it was a break indeed.

I’m back, but I need to go to sleep now. :) See you all tomorrow. 6 years ago

Such plans are so unpredictable ya know?! But how can something like this be planned? What is ‘this’ even?
No one can predict what will happen or won’t happen, there aren’t any rules to follow, no books written. I am glad I finally have the self understanding to live one day at a time and not stress on what if this or that or what might happen next month or next year…I’m here now and ‘now’ is what matters. 6 years ago