I just started living with my mum again. Im 14 and my life at home is scary. My social worker dumped me here because i ran away to much. I ran away because all the group home workers at all the places wanted to talk about my problems, and talk about what my life at home was like. I got 31 charges, and have three different court orders saying i cant run away. When i was in group homes, they called the police or my P.O and i would always get in trouble. Now that im at home, my mom calls the cops, but im in a different city, so most of the cops don’t know me and don’t bother with looking up my history. Because my home life is so shitty, i run away so i don’t have to face it all the time. I was so good, i ran away a lot less in the past six months, and now all that work is going away. I don’t know how to fight the urge to run anymore… 3 months ago
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The urge to run away has always been within me. It speaks to me every single day, trying to persuade me to run for the hills, leave everything behind and start all over again.
I’ve barely turned twenty and already, I’ve done this far too often. I just can’t seem to find my shelf in this world, the place that is for me. I don’t know where I belong and my life scares me. So I run. Learning to be happy and unashamed of my entire being has proven to be the greatest task given to me.
I just hope I’ll stop fleeing from everything that scares me. Accepting life and all the obstacles it lay in front of me is something I have to learn how to do, ‘cause I’m too out of breath to run any more. 3 years ago
This has always been a tough one for me. I have anxiety issues and trust issues. So running has always seemed like the best option. But this time I didn’t run, even though I really felt I had to. I thought he didn’t love me anymore, so I thought that running away from the relationship would help make that pain go away. I withdrew from him and gaurded myself. But I stayed. And now I am so happy I did. :) 6 years ago
but I’m better at it, thanks in large part to a partner who is understanding and forgiving. 6 years ago
It’s temptations that make things become difficult. Indeed I don’t lack the necessary courage to handle stuff or solve the problems myself. But the inward needs of finding a right balance is the thing I need to fight. 7 years ago
This is also sometimes called Being Brave, Stubborn and a Little Bit Crazy. 7 years ago
“Every time I fight the urge to run, it diminishes the fear a little bit. It never really cancels the fear of losing; I just have to keep challenging it.” 7 years ago