Going tomorow… i have actually have a symptom of one of the std’s, so now i know i deffinetly have one, but i need the medicine. I haven’t been sexualyl active in a year but it still sucks. I wish I got tested earlier. I had an anxiety attack at work. This really. Makes me hate myself. I can’t believe myself last summer. Why was I so careless. And so stupid. It just sucks because I am so different now, I haven’t been active for over a year but its still in me. This disease. And it just makes me so angry seeing the person I got it from still going around doing what he did to me. I don’t like it. I don’t like me. I just. I wish I had someone to talk to.
I’m scared to death and I can guarantee right when I walk into the clinic tomorow i’m going to cry my eyes out. I’m so scared. 6 years ago