stop binge drinking

Wasn’t hard. I wasn’t that bad at it in the first place though. Now I have an entirely different attitude when going out, I didn’t go out to get drunk before but it just happened. Nights are better when you are in control.

I hate that I have no self control when it comes to alcohol on nights out. This summer I’ve been at my worst ever, just completely making a fool of myself, ruining perfectly good nights out with my drinking. I wake up the next day cringing and full of regrets..and then I go out and do it all again. And recently I’ve been having the biggest memory black outs which leads to more self loathing. I was ok when I younger, but as I grow older I can see others losing respect for me after nights out and they witness my behaviour. It’s going to be harder to stop binge drinking than to stop drinking altogether because I find just sticking to a couple near impossible and I drink so fast that I’m always wasted before I realise..but I’m going to try my hardest to exercise some self control and if that doesn’t work, then I guess I’ll have to try cutting out alcohol completely.

Went to a party last night and drank way more than I should have. I ended up throwing up and passing out. I was so embarassed this morning to hear the stories and I’m disappointed in myself. I thought I was doing well…pacing my drinks…but everything just caught up with me at one point and then I was too drunk to refuse drinks. I barely remember anything from last night and I felt so sick today. I’m thinking of giving up drinking altogether now. I don’t want to be known as an uncontrolable drunk and I think ppl are starting to think that now. I feel like not only did I let myself down, I also let my friends down too. I don’t want them to have to take care of me all the time. I feel so shitty right now :(

I closed down the bar 4-5 nights a week for years in my 20’s, and good God was it fun. The dancing, the laughter, the flirting, and the awesome people you meet. It gave you a reason to get together…bad days, good days, celebrations, mournings….whatever the reason, whenever the time….Marguiritas at noon on a birthday…awesome. However, one day I was just tired. Tired of being headachy and nauseated all the time. Tired of being too tired to function at work, tired of not wanting to work out. So, I just stop at one or two now. No big deal. I just know that I don’t want to feel sick and tired anymore. I still LOVELOVELOVE beer and wine….but savor it instead of shoot it!

So I’m going camping with a few friends and they’e all excited to drink and get drunk. Yea..i’m gonna have a few drinks..but I’m definately going to pace myself and not get too drunk. I’ll just get nice and buzzed. :)

makes me feel like crap the next day, high in calories, I act stupid, bad for body

June 9: Drank one glass of wine, two pints of beer, and one double highball. I was at a rock show and felt nervous/anxious and bored. Date was also drinking and think he felt the same as me. Anyways, totally hung over next morning at work, showed up over an hour late, had to eat fast food for breakfast. Next time just smoke a little pot beforehand and buy one bottle of light beer to hold onto during show!

unfortantly once again i fell off the wagon. i went away camping, my first mistake was buying a whole bottle of vodka as it was cheaper than 8 pre-mixed drinks. it was heading down a bad road already. than my best friend also came with a bottle of vodka. YES the next day we woke up and both bottles were empty. i woke up the next day embarressed of stuff i had done and still drunk.. i was dissapointed in myself

I haven’t gotten stupid drunk and haven’t been binge drinking since my birthday in March. Whenever I would go drinking my mentality was always “more, more, more” to try to get a drunk as possible. Now I count my drinks and drink slowly so that I don’t get too drunk, I just get a nice feeling. I’ve drank to the point of almost alcohol poisoning on two seperate occasions and have gotten myself into some very embarrassing situations. I don’t want to get stupid drunk anymore. I want to go out and have a nice time and not have to worry about how I will feel the next day. I’ve started to go to bars and clubs less and when I do go, I offer to drive or tell myself I will only have a couple drinks. Apart from health benefits, it also saves money. I think I’m getting to old for the drinking scene anyway. :)

I had a very drunk night out on Friday and cant remember exactly what took place, I am so worried as my girlfriend’s friends said I was a complete ass, I tried to chat up one of here friends and at the end of the evening they had to ask me to leave. I am really worried as this has come to a point where everytime a go out I binge. This is not the person I want to be, I don’t drink very often but when I do I can’t control when to stop and when I have had to much. Should I try to stop drinking completely or just work on why I don’t know where and when to stop and go home.

Here I am again…after a weekend of binge drinking I am very disappointed with myself. I am trying so hard to get my life together, to be a good mother & wife, & yet was so close to messing it all up with another man, because of my drinking. This is a cycle that is repeating itself & I just can’t do this anymore.