make the best of our separation

we decided to stick it out together & work on us… 6 years ago

thank you to everyone who helped me through that first night. I re-read through those comments for the next couple of days, even though I found it hard to open up again…

It was really hard on our kids, they’re so close to both of us, and we figured out that it is impossible financially right now. So after a few days, and after my mom left, he moved back in…

Things are slowly getting better, through therapy, and the like. He really hasn’t been much for self-awareness until now, so it’s helping, a bit.

But it’s still very rocky, considering all the hurt between us, and my own health and how that reminds me of what he did every day. It seems like a cop-out on one level, to stay together for the kids, especially when everything is so raw now. I’m still given to tantrums, and shrewish outbreaks…but if it doesn’t get better with time, we are just trying to get our finances together, so that separating more finally is an available option, if it becomes necessary for the kids’ well-being to do so.

I just wanted to provide an update for everyone who had been so kind and reached out, I can’t even begin to tell you how much this meant to me. To my sanity, my ability to function as a mom… Thank you so much.

I may go back and delete this goal and or entries. Then, on the other hand, it was so healing to share this, and stop feeling so ashamed…

Thank you from the very bottom of my heart and soul, to all of you who commented, at any time. It all made a difference.

Diana 6 years ago

moving out tonight 6 years ago