Since it is my birthday tomorrow, I thought it would be appropriate to summarize the last year of my life. One year ago I was very unhappy with work. I was also physically burned out and I was stuck in a rut with my life. I worried about what people thought of me. Mostly I was unhappy with the way my life was going (or more appropriately, standing still).
As I tackled my fears and started working on pushing my boundaries, I found that many of the things I was worried about did not happen. And I also recieved a lot of positive praise regarding things I thought people might not like. I consider both of these as victories and they helped me to tackle bigger changes.
Work changed, and that freed me from some bad situations. The change did force me to look at how many “bad” situations I was causing myself. And it allowed me a buffer to re-evaluate how I was interacting with certain people.
Working on my health opened up my eyes and heart to new ways of experiencing the world. At first I fought the changes, but once I decided to just try them I started to see my perspective change in a lot of positive ways. As the stress levels reduced, I slept better. This helped me have a positive outlook on life. And getting rid of the fatigue I had been feeling was a huge help.
Like a house of cards, each little change allowed for more positive changes to be added. I am healthy now, but I am not in perfect health just yet. I deserve to have perfect health – meaning that I have dealt with my emotional self, my physical self and my spiritual self. Each day I am making a little more progress.
I still need to get out and do more activities, and take some vacation time to visit someplace else. I need to continue to walk and then start running again. I want to get back into bicycling, and kayaking. And I want to have a social life again.
During the past year I relearned how important it is to forgive people. And how important it is to love people, especially myself. And how what I eat can affect how I feel more than I thought. Maybe the biggest lesson I relearned is that who I am is not defined by the work I do. Who I am can also change anytime I want to change. And who I am is certainly not based on how I dress, or what I know. It is how I treat other people, how I treat myself, what I take responsibility for, and what I value.
I LIKE who I am! And I look forward to learning more about myself during the coming year.
Happy (re)Birthday to me! 9 months ago