Stop being pessimistic

Im always thinking negative. I can’t stop being this way. My boyfriend felt so annoyed by my attitude. Maybe it is because of my past experience. Actually this feeling is bugging me a lot. I don’t know where to start and end this negative feelings.

I do realise once in a while, that the world is a nice place, and that people are nice, and everything will be fine. I just need to realise it more often…

It’s better than the alternative. I don’t see optimism as a good thing, I see it as people fooling themselves. I do however believe there is a middle-way, which I hope I am in. Realism is good, pessism is what it’s often labeled as, but I don’t really think it’s true. When I think of an optimist, I see someone with a silly phrase on their t-shirt, which is all supposed to make us feel so much better about the state of things. Yeah… okay then.

How many times have I thought pessimistically this year and been wrong? Too many.