grow closer to Christ

So this is a MUST! I certainly have not done the best I can in my relationship with Him. I HAVE to do better. His way is what is best for me after all. I’ve been such a disappointment in my walk with Christ for years…and I’ve been serious about serving Him for so long. Something has to change. My walk with Christ has to change…

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am trying hard to get closer to Christ too

i found this beautiful relationship w/ Christ once my boyfriend and I broke up. i wanted to find him because of the break up and because i am dealing with depression and anxiety. well anyway everything was going great then i relapsed and i didnt pray, read my bible, listen to gospel music, didnt even acknowledge God for a good 2-3 weeks…it scared me because i wanted to but i was afraid. i trusted him and he failed me. i trusted him to keep my loved ones safe, then he took my grandmother away. then he took my boyfriend/best friend away [he’s not dead, we just don’t go together]. i trusted him but i have a mother who continues to verbally attack me. i have a father who ignores me and disrespects my mother. i am a nice person but i have friends who use me and the abuse me [being cliche’]. but after all of that i still love him and i still thank him…because hopefully i can look back and be proud of all i went through to appreciate all that i will have.

I haven’t really attended church regularly in a while. I don’t get as much out of my parent’s Methodist church as I did at the Southern Baptist churches. Still, church is such a family thing and I can feel strange around new people sometimes, especially in a more intimate and spiritual place like church.

It’s hard living and working with some people who are turned off by organized religion or religion and general- especially your partner. There is a passage in the Bible- one about being equally yoked with a Christian otherwise, one will go the wrong way or stronger and it’s just a big mess. I love Franci. We are a wonderful pair. God is calling me to take on this challenge I hope I can.

It’d probably be easier if people I know would try to not tune out everything religious out or acting condescending towards it in general. I don’t want to mess up, say the wrong thing to turn them off- I’m not a preacher who knows everything. What if he asks me something and I misspeak? I pray that God will give me the right words.

I’m not radical, but I almost feel ashamed to who God is calling me to be in front of people who know me. All in all, I consider myself a good person, but I have several faults. I haven’t been living like a role model- I’ve been swearing, feeling-dare I say-entitled?, saying I’m more spiritual and not religious. How do I come out and say “hey guys I’m a born again Christian.” I can’t. I’m going to try to be a better person than I am, go to church. Lead by example?

I just don’t want them to see me as a hypocrite or a tool. Everyone feels insecure sometimes. It’s not like I’m not afraid that they’ll be against me. I’m not really looking for support. I just don’t want to feel embarassed. I feel bad for feeling like this, though I know it’s a wonderful thing to aspire to be a better person, to live a holier lifestyle.

I want to join the Christian club once I start my full-time nursing late summer-fall. I hope then there will be more new people who want to join. I need a Bible study. I need to be around people who can help me stay so alive.

Christ has helped me through some pretty tough times. I owe it to Him and myself to live a better life.

It’s all about belief and nothing to do with knowledge.

I have started to attend church once in a while and recently read some of the Bible. I went to church from the time I was born to about age 18… I should have never stopped going to church. I never picked up the Bible on my own time and I’m glad I recently did.

A goal that I will never truly be accomplished, since we can always be closer, right? But anyways, it is a goal. One that I will consider accomplished whenever I look back and say, “Wow, I’m so much closer to Him now than I was at that time.” No less than a year from now.

I love the Lord and recieved him as my Lord and personal savior about a decade ago, recently I became a certified Christian Counsellor, I have an assurance in His word, ”...He who has began this good work in me, will be faithfull to complete it….”I am looking forward to him coming back for the church, the believers. You are welcome to contact me @ www.christian-ibd.com if you want to fellowship by email

i have started my daily devotions though sometimes i miss a day, but it is something….