appreciate the present

and it’s time to pack. I’m moving out of my apartment home of 5 years with a history of several other apartment lives. I’m moving to my first house with the love of my life. It is my dream come true and I don’t want to start packing.

What am I holding on to? Holding on to what’s old and safe. That’s been my lesson in the last year. Letting go of the old, safe & broken that I’ve shielded myself from blessings with. As I’ve let go of food addictions, checmical addictions, dysfunctional relationship addictions, blessings have been rolling in like waves lapping at my feet. Beautiful life has been waiting for me and I’ve got another layer to release.

It can be so scarry to risk happiness. Dull funk has been my companion for too long. I’ve been shooing it out like gray cobwebs keeping me stuck, but I have resistance to this last hold it has on me.

I am so grateful to start my new life. I’m going to have a yard, a place to plant things. A home with my love. I’m so blessed. Now to get moving! I can do this.

and loved it! went out for brunch. went back to bed. :) blissful, and a shared experience. and i feel good about it, which is the accomplishment.

good job, me!

The black, blue-black, alchemical quality of Raven reminds me today that in this moment there are great things at work. The universe is taking care of me.

it’s an accomplishment for me to have a relaxing day at home with my family. despite a little 7-year-old drama, we did our best at being. not too much pressure to get things done. the best was making popsicle stick puppets. lots of creativity and fun.

my life is exactly where it is supposed to be. fig trees, a house, a garden are coming to me in their right time. i have the right job today. i begin to brainstorm and attract the change in my life as it flows to me.

“if you want change in your life, walk in to it. if you get on the other side you will be different. if you are avoiding the trouble, you can forget it. ” – sweet honey & the rock