change

First of all I don’t wanna change who I am. I just want to live better. I wanna lose some weight, eat healtier, have a lot of friends, look nice (dress better, correct my posture..). I am happy with who I am. I fust wanna change my lifesytle.

I want to change my life into one I love to live. I have so much wishes and ideas but I need to have courage to be ative and pratice it. I need to be more spontanous and self-confident. First step of my change will be my move from home and the beginning of my university time. I’m a bit frightend but mostly I’m very happy and excited. What will future give to me?!?

not enough or in the ways I’d like to change, but I’ve changed a lot. I’m gonna mark this as done. But I’ll keep doing it. Change is the only constant.

Changed is not just a word it’s something you become. This word has a deeper meaning then most think. It’s something I am becoming not something I already am. I am changing so I can say that I am changed. Changed is me being who I truley know I am. It’s discovering the things that I have inside and being who I vision.

Through out life I have had my up and downs. I have had to sacrafice break down and then build myself back up. I’m not trying to say that my life is worse then others, but you have never felt what i felt how i felt it, and untill u live my life and walk in my shoes there is no way you can judge me.

Through My Eyes :

I think that when we are born our life is mapped out for us. I belive that we have to read the map, and go down that road. In the journey there will be construction in the way so you have to find the right detour. The detour was put there to teach us lessons sometimes we may have ignored the lesson, and then you have to start over. In my life I have tried to find the true meaning of life. The one reason I was put on this earth. Why me? Why during this period in history?. I believe that everyone was put here for some reason, we just have to figure out what the reason is. Looking back on my life I have seen the obsticals and know where I have got lost. Now It’s my job to start over and follow the map. I can’t change anything so the only thing I can do is make it better. It took me twenty-nine yrs, but I finally figured it out, and someday I hope u will too.

is to become more positive, more confident, more friendly/more accepting of other people.

i think they’re all connected and it may be difficult to do at first. but i guess i’ll just throw myself into working on it more in social and more personal situations, because i really can be negative and uncomfortable around people. i don’t want people to see me as having a bad or toxic energy!!

I’m tired of who I am(in a good way) and I need to change.I’m headed for college and I don’t want to be the baby anymore.

I will always be changing
Hopefully changing for the positive =]

This is a reminder for me I guess

And if not there, then I’m extremely close. I’m not sure when it happened, but lately I’ve just been feeling better about myself. Even when I’m totally stressed out and losing sleep, I still feel good, and I think that’s some kind of progress. I don’t want to check this off just yet though, because I think I just need more time to set it in stone. But other than that, I think I’m well on my way.

I’m basically not a very happy person, just to lay it out there. I’ve never really been too pleased in myself and I haven’t exactly ever taken pride in anything that I’ve done. But I’d like to change that. Ever since I can remember, I have always done what I thought others wanted me to or I’ve done things because of how I thought people would react. I’ve held myself back from actually living because I’ve been afraid of rejection or I’m not even sure what. I guess it really took hitting rock bottom for me to realize that I need a change. I just want to be someone else, someone happier, someone better. I’ve always taken crap from everyone else. I’ve let people push me around, and over time, all of this fear has caused me to change into something that I’m not happy with. I don’t like who I’ve become over the years. I want to be happy, no matter what it takes. So many people have told me, “you only live once”. And every time I hear it, it stings. It’s true, and yet I feel like there is some kind of barrier, holding me back from actually feeling anything, from actually doing anything with my life.
Recently, I’ve found myself losing touch with my friends, distancing myself even from my family. I can’t even relate to my “best” friends anymore. And now I realize it’s because I never could. I recently became close with someone who I thought I could trust. A so-called friend. Suddenly I realize that I’ve always known that I needed to get away from this scene, this environment. I mean, why be friends with people that just hurt me? I guess what I’m trying to say is that I want to change everything. Myself, my environment, and how I let others affect and treat me. I’m sick of waiting around for something to happen. I need to make things happen, and I won’t be able to by hiding behind this shield that I have put up for myself.