I designed them myself on the Converse website, then said I couldn’t spend that much on shoes, less than 48 hours later I decided to go for it as I loved the design, 3 weeks later I have them. I got really worried that maybe I wouldnt like them as much as what they looked like in the picture, but I love them even more. Plus they can be guilt free as I used some of my christmas money that I still had, result! 4 days ago

I would love to wake up one weekend after a hard week at work and say ‘im going here for the weekend,’ everything in life always seems so planned and although planning with friends is good because it maximises the chances of everyone being able to make said activity, I would like for once to just randomally go away for the weekend for an adventure that had no prior planning.
I used to think that I wasn’t spontaneous at all, but the desire and drive is there, Ive just been too busy up until now. When I’ve completed my diploma I will be working full time as opposed to 3 days so I will be getting more money, so will be able to just head off someonewhere exciting if the mood takes me. 2 weeks ago

I think what my 16 year old self was getting at when she wrote these goals down on this random internet site all those years ago about ‘living in the moment’, she meant ‘stop being a raging, tangled mess of emotions and thoughts… so busy slaving away to your fears and insecurities that you can’t pay attention to what’s going on in front of you.’

At that age, I was SO terrified of being this old. Actually, i’ve successfully lived three years past the age I thought I was going to die at – I couldn’t even imagine being this old…. And I won’t lie, I was mostly worried about becoming unattractive and wrinkly.

But in those little dents formed by the wrinkles on my forehead (two, at last counting) is a place for wisdom and knowledge to get stuck, rather than bouncing right off the surface of my perfect teenage skin. Ha, or at least i’ll tell myself that to make myself feel better about them.
But with age, I became less scared. I realised you can’t go around wishing things were different, longing for things you don’t have, ever or anymore. I heard the phrase ‘I do not give one single fuck’, decided to take it on as my life motto…. and I realised sometimes I am at fault when things go wrong, too. But we’re all human, forgive and forget. Some amazing things will happen as a consequence of the terrible things you’re going through right now.
Oh, my 16 year old self, if you could control what happened life would not be fun. There would be no suprises, none of the spontaneous trips, good friends, new postcodes, if it wasn’t for something you didn’t want happening… happening.

And you learn to accept people for who they are. As you know your faults, too. A world becomes opened up to you that you never thought of before, possibilities are endless. You know that as long as you work hard enough, you can get to anywhere you want to be. And then one day I realised i’m living in the moment.. most of the time, perhaps it gets a little shaky depending on my life situation. But i’m worlds away from the time I read Eckhart Tolle.

I wish I could give better advice, other than get old. 2 months ago

I’m trying to live each moment as if I’m about to die in the next. Hoping to waste less time worrying that way and also not take life or anyone in it for granted. It’s hard to remember this goal sometimes!! 3 months ago

Ive been spending a lot of time living in the past and thinking about the future that Im not actually present in the now. I need to just not care about it all for awhile and just be here right now. I found a really interesting quote on Pinterest that basically sums this up lol but do you think I can find it again!?? No.

On a positive note: I am a very implusive person, go big or go home! lol. So I guess Im on my way to live in the moment. 5 months ago

I’ve been focusing way too much on fixing myself, so all my thoughts have been revolving around what’s wrong with me. This is getting very tiring so today I’m going to focus on living in the present moment and being loving and kind to myself. Starting to feel more peaceful already. 5 months ago

But I need space for a new goal :-)

I’ll be back… 7 months ago