Find the purpose of my life

It’s easy to understand
God give me the life and my life belong’s to god

Is to be a shinning example to others, and to show them all that there is to offer in the world. By highlighting everything good and beautiful on earth, I can make people forget about all the bad and ugly. If I live life to the fullest, I can make people appreciate the short time they have on this earth.

Thats my goal, and thats my purpose. I’m glad I’ve finally found it, after so many years.

So I am 21 so this might be a shocker. I have never Gone to the snow or kissed a boy or had sex before. Why am I afraid? I know what your asking. “what does this have to do about her reson to be alive? She is Just telling us what she hasent done yet.” Well Ia m getting to it dont worry. This Basicly means that i am a coward. So….. If I havent done those things and i am perfectly happy why am I alive i might find later in my life.(I hope)TEE HEE

I really want to know what my purpose is in life..Am i here for something special? or will i jsut be one of the million drifters?....People always say your jus 18 you have plenty time,look at the millions who were 18 and still dont know there purpose 2 date..I just want to know my true purpose and will it make me and others happy? lol…hopefully im a wizard like harry potter,or have some hidden power waiting to be unlocked,LOL

Rereading my earlier entry, I think I was being disingenuous. There was a much better reason for putting this at the top of the list than I gave. This really should be at the top of the list, and if it’s not, everything else in the world will pour in on top and this, very key, very important, most important thing, will never be addressed. And that is what has happened until now. And it must stop.

I found that I love connecting with people, and helping them, so rather than becoming a day-care employee, or working at a retiring home, I decided to visit another country, and do volunteer labor. I realized that enjoying all the benefits of a milk-and-honey America just wasn’t my style, because despite all of my blessings I was still dissatisfied with my weight, appearance, and personality. Living in another country and experiencing different, more significant problems put that in perspective. If there is nothing wrong with your life you will find something that needs perfecting anyways. For me, I am more happy with my less-than-milk-and-honey life than my blessed one.

I just moved it to the top of the list, more to avoid doing anything on the list, since I think I’m pretty bushed – into my 28th hour with no sleep, although I’m really not feeling tired, but still – I do hate/love to do this to myself.

(It feels pretty good actually – what happened to all those studies that said losing sleep has similar effects to the anti-depressants?)

But it just can’t be that my purpose in life is depriving myself of sleep.

But I don’t think my purpose is to sleep through life, either.

(Agh, had to get all metaphorical, don’t you know?)

It’s true though, I don’t want to start a Kramer-system…

(I remember a kid in college who was doing the same thing, following Da Vinci – he moved to New York – I wonder if that’s popular there.)

Anyway, this rambling nonsense isn’t cutting to the core of the problem – how am I gonna figure out what I’m supposed to do here?

(Especially when I find it so hard to trust anyone… I suspect everyone of cheating me in one way or another. I’ve just seen too much of it, that I see it now even if it isn’t there. I’ve often seen myself as Prufrock, never as Othello. But since I can’t see myself – well that’s really the source of the whole difficulty with this goal, isn’t it? But what difference does a social definition make? Am I kidding? Will I be a hermit, emanating thoughts?)

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Last night I was reading a book about doing things badly and found out Julia Child didn’t learn to cook until she was 36! Wow! I know that Vincent Van Gogh was also in his 30’s when he started to paint and Barbara Walters just said on the view today that she didn’t know what she wanted to do until her mid-thirties. Interesting, I am in my mid thirties and I don’t know what I want to do. Maybe it will come to me soon? Who knows.