get engaged

So I’m 34 years old and I would like to have children. I figure if my boyfriend proposes to me early 2010 and we get married the same year, I could potentially start having kids by 2011. 36 years old isn’t THAT bad to have your first kid I guess…

Over the past couple of months, I haven’t been talking to my bf as much as I use to and was kind of worried that I wasn’t loved anymore. I know that sounds stupid but coming from talk to a person everyday to maybe having a convo once every 3 weeks can be dramatic to a young spoiled girl in love. Now I know he has his own life and so do I, trust me I want him do whatever he needs to do without me being pressed on him. And also his phone being cut off was a reason of the distance of timing between convos. But there are time when I can be a little selfish with his attention. And being far apart does make it hard when you want to be close to each other.

So what I did is something that not only helped me out when I missed but it reassured me that he missed me just as much. One night, I missed him so much that I just laid in bed dreaming and wishing things to happen. So I logged into my IM client where I have his screen-name and typed out a long message (I mean a loooonnng message) that pretty much laid out my feelings and thoughts about him. That he is the only one I can see myself with and that no one can ever mean as much as he does to me which is very very true. And that I know we are waiting for that right time to make things official and I’ll always be his number one fan for life.

Well today, by my surprise, he got my message and lets just say, the love was never gone and still going strong. I guess the distance helps makes the heart grow fonder, every single day. And hearing those 3 little words from your best friend, love of ur life and soul-mate can put a huge smile on a girl’s face for days.

My boyfriend Edwin and I been best-friends for about 4 years. We met when he a was displaced in Philly during hurricane Katrina. He searched for a friend on Yahoo! and saw me and sent me an IM. We chatted and very quickly called each other on the phone to arrange a meeting and a dinner date. From then on we were friends. Now after years of ups and downs and a much needed visit to him in Mississippi, I finally confused my feelings and love for him and return, he felt the same way.

So right now we still lives miles away and I’m waiting for him to finish his schooling so he can move back up closer to me. We already had those “pre-marriage” talks and discussions and we decided to wait till we both at the places in our careers and finance to be together. Just can’t wait for that day when he is on his bended knee in front of me.

The Cathedral Tree

It happened almost 2 weeks ago in the most beautiful place, in the most beautiful way.

This has been a long journey for us, which has involved the most intense and profound transformation.

Never before has my heart felt so happy.

“do you have something you want to ask me?”
”...don’t get your hopes up.”

<3

he says it’s not something he’d do over the phone.
HE’S SO ROMANTIC!

We got engaged at 03:50am on February 20,2008

When he gets a job and can afford a ring getting engaged is first priority, so me helping him more than ever to get a job will also help me out!

I was dating Steve for about 3 years and on December 27, 2008 he took me out on a private horse drawn carriage ride through the Christmas lights display on the Chesapeake Bay. He was all cuddly and nervous, so I had a feeling something was coming, lol… but he didn’t propose on the carriage ride!! So we went home and I was thinking of how romantic the carriage ride was and what a surprise he managed to pull off. When we were at home, we continued our date night with champagne and a movie. During the movie, Steve kept getting up and pacing… and I kept asking him what his deal was, lol. He came over to me, got down on one knee and told me that he loved me more than I could know, loved my son and wanted to spend the rest of his life with us. He was crying as he asked me to marry him and I couldn’t contain my excitement. Of course I said yes and I can’t wait until the wedding!!!

I met my boyfriends two daughters for the first time this weekend… it went really well and I think it definitely puts us closer to being engaged. I mean prior to meeting the girls I would have found it very hard to imagine meeting them the first time as his wife or even his finacee. That would have been much too much for a child to process…

not gonna happen any time some….broke up with my boyfriend yesterday