Of course the initial euphoria wore off and after 2 shocking days in work I started going “This is’nt working!”
It’s not true, I am still doing the twice a day cd listening and am a lot lot more positive and feel a lot happier.
But now after skimming through the book, reading all of it, but not doing the exercises, I am now going through the exercises in the book.
I saw “What the bleep do we know” during the week and what struck me was the power of the ingrained beliefs I carry around with me. I am now doing an exercise that forces you to own up to these beliefs and decide what to do about them.
I’m documenting a limiting belief a day, it is quite confronting, but it is making me very concious of them , and am now actively looking for ways to stop believing them. It is not so straightforward as it sounds, I’ve had these negative beliefs about the world and myself for quite some time…
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Ok – look I am not into most of the self help stuff out there, but I really think this is the real deal.
I have read the book cover to cover and done the hypnosis cd twice a day religiously, first thing in the morning and last thing at night.
Now I have not made a million or met the man of my dreams, but these are the changes I have noticed (these have been effortless might I add)
1. The negative thoughts start occasionally, but they seem to linger off, I don’t dwell on them. This is a big change for me, my negativity used to snowball from the minute I woke at 6am, like a monster feeding on itself.
2. When I interact with people, even people I have known for years, I start to notice, really notice great qualities about them. It’s a lovely feeling.
3. My relationship with my boss has improved enormously. His every move was driving me insane, now I actually think he’s ok.
So what has happened?
Well I have managed to get a new role part time in my current job where I learn the ropes for a job I have been debating how to manoevre into for the last 2 years. Yes this all happened last week. I actually feel enthusiastic about my job now!!
I also reconnected with a old friend I had a major falling out with – I initiated it and was not scared of rejection at all. It was wonderful!
I still have a lot of work to do.I still feel bleak on finding love in my life and got really peed off and annoyed with a gf Friday night (she can test most people though). My theory on it all, is that our brains are incredible machines, that can figure out exactly how to get what we want/need in life, but some people just blur it all up with some awful unneccesary negative thinking so we can’t get the goood stuff in life.
So glad I started this, I am setting myself of goal of doing this twice a day for a month
I need to work on my thoughts.
I’m 34 , I relocated to Sydney many years ago from the UK.
I have a job , I leave work every day on the dot of 5:30 . I earn a great salary and suffer no stress about work whatsoever. The view from my desk has panoramic views of the harbour. I have a lovely set of friends , not much luck with guys, I seem to go for the tools. I have perfect health and am about 55kg with no body issues to speak of.
And I’m miserable, I am angry all the time with everything and everybody. I feel everyone has got so much more than me and that I am hard done by in life. I feel victimised all the time, that life has somehow inflicted failure on me, that no man will ever love me as I am just not attractive to people.
I don’t think I am depressed, I sleep well, and I still like to catch up with people, though I am avoiding big social gatherings. I don’t feel that numbness that I hear people talk about when they suffer depression.
I think the problem is this horrendous dialog I go through every day.
When I wake up, by the time I reach the bathroom I have come to the conclusion that for the rest of my life I will be always alone, my life is so pathethic people feel sorry for me, that everyday will be the same as the one before and nothing nice will ever happen me. When I look in the mirror I pick apart all the wrinkles, all the stuff that make me unloveable.
You may ask, how will anything nice ever happen to me if this is my thought process?
I think that I have always naturally been a negative person, with some positive periods in between that have been wonderful.
I want to feel positive at least 70% of the time. My sister does, and she has faced the same issues as me, but her thought processes have given a rich and prosperous life with babies and a wonderful set up.
I don’t post this blurb looking for pity or to be completly self absorbed. I think I just need to acknowledge that how I think is a big problem and I need to work on it somehow. I’ve got probably another 35 years left on the planet and want them to be as joyful as can be. It would be great to look at all I have and appreciate them everyday without feeling pain about what I do not.
Would love to get any tips from positive people about how to get there though.
I did the Paul Mckenna cd today and did the meditation. It was great , I felt far less angry and a whole lot more positive.
My goal is to do this first thing in the morning and last at night for a month. If I have any change whatsoever in my general disposition it will be worth it!
