No joke. My first carb dream was about a week after I started Atkins. In my dream, my sister was trying to convince me to eat Oreos. (I knew it was a dream because my sister would never do such a thing; she’s too healthy for that.) Last night I dreamed of eating Fritos
dipped drenched in barbecue sauce (which I’ve never had and never intend to eat). I’ve been resisting the urge to buy a chocolate chip muffin since I got to the coffee shop nearly two hours ago. (I made the mistake of not eating breakfast before I left the house this morning, so all that’s in my system is about 10 ounces of half-caf coffee. Smart. I’m this close to indulging. Sigh.)
But craving aside, I’ve been feeling so much better lately. It’s been relatively easy to stick with Atkins over the past 18 days. The scale’s gone back down a bit again and I’m not as excessively sleepy or mood swing-y these days. I rarely feel hungry because I can always find something low carb/high protein to satiate my hunger. I’m trying to keep this all in mind when I have the urge to give up (mostly today). But what’s the point in feeling good physically if I’m constantly fighting a mental battle. I wonder if there’s a middle ground, but I’ve never been any good at middle grounds when it comes to diet and exercise. I’m definitely an all-or-nothing kind of person.
I finally delved further into my PCOS workbook this morning. I’m glad I kept reading because the book talks about the advantages and disadvantages of a low-carb, high-protein diet for insulin resistant women. I really thought I was doing the right thing. It’s like I was the pupil who thought for sure that I’d be doing the right homework before the teacher even assigned it. But I was wrong. Apparently “balance” works for insulin resistant women, too. And here I thought I needed to be “extreme.”
I’m pretty sure that chocolate chip muffin still isn’t the answer :P
My book suggested meeting with a registered dietitian to help define a diet that will work best for ME. I don’t know why I hadn’t thought of that before, but it’s something I’m going to look into as soon as I’m done writing this entry.
A couple nights ago I had a sleep study and found out that I have mild sleep apnea. I’m not sure how that’s going to play a role in all of this, but it’s something new to manage. I’m doubting my doctor’s knowledge on the subject, but fortunately I can get a second opinion from the sleep doc if my GP doesn’t cut it. There’s something to be said for the up-to-date knowledge a newer, younger doctor may have, but there’s no substitute for experience, either. My doctor’s less than three years older than me. Yeah.
Lastly, back to the PCOS, my workbook reiterated what I (mostly) already knew – regular exercise is essential to PCOS management. (What medical condition isn’t bettered by some sort of exercise?) I’ve got to plan ahead and make the time to fit something into my daily routine. If only this damn weather would warm up a bit; I’d love to get back into a walking routine but not with all the close calls I’ve had on icy ground this winter. After a great hatha yoga class last Sunday, I’d really like to find a local morning class. It’s probably unreasonable to think I’d drive an hour round trip to get in a yoga class before work each morning, haha.
Saturday mornings are always full of so much insight and motivation. Let’s see how long this lasts…
Edit: I had the stupid muffin. It was pretty good, but now my body’s wondering what the hell I poisoned it with. My brain feels different and I can feel a bit of fatigue setting in. Today might call for an afternoon nap and a return to low carbs for the rest of the day… and until I can speak with a medical professional about what’s best for me.
Second edit: Bingeing on Reese’s Peanut Butter Hearts doesn’t help matters at all. Feeling like absolute shit. This is why I can’t “cheat” on diets. Felt so much better with no sugar. 2 months ago