forget about him

It is extremely comforting to find people who are experiencing loss, and moving on with their lives. I have done this once before, and took a long time to myself. I closed myself off completely. Now I’m here a second time, and it hurts more than the first. The guy I fell in love with is not the same guy I’m with now, yet it’s so hard to walk away because I have hope that one day he will be attentive,and loving again. I just want to walk away and forget him. I WANT to do this, and I’m going to. I deserve better!!!

I’m getting there :). He can go live his life with his girlfriend and I won’t care!!

i was with him for one and a half months.
He expected sex. I said no.
He insisted everytime.
I said no.

He started going out drinking.
Four times a week, every week without fail.

He told me to buy something for me.
I said ok.

Then I got dumped.
Three weeks later I found out I got played.
Immediately the next day I found out he had a new girlfriend.

Why.

i shouldn’t call… again
obviously he doesn’t care.

just leave it be.

i feel so stupid, and feel to be falling with the same god damn rock over and over.. i can’t understand why this happens to me, what ve i done, and why. anyway, i need to forget about him, and i dont know how to. need something to distract myself, something to feel better.

I’ve fallen in love.
I’ve fallen pretty bad
I don’t know the answers
just that I can’t stop thinking about him
and I wish I could

What we had was not real.
But close enough.
Close enough to make me dream about you and miss you.
And hope that you haven’t forgotten me and the things we shared.

to mark this goal as complete. i’ve been feeling remarkably free of late, at least as far as it concerns the person in question. the new girlfriend bit really does help. that plus time and lack of contact.

i like this feeling.

i really, really do.

especially if it brings a new girlfriend along.

yeah. he’s finally going out with someone else after two years of being single after me. i’m glad i can’t truly call her a rebound- i wish the best for him- but it still stings. it’s easier to get over him when i see him acting like a jerk to everyone else, though.

so… he arrived, deep inside i thought maybe he would call… but guess what? he asked for my best friend’s number (mine too but i think it was just for hide he was interested in something else) i haven’t seen him yet, and i think i’m not going to do that… i just hear my best friend telling me hundred times he’s calling her… and it hurts. But the good thing is that i realized that maybe he’s not “prince charming” and i have the rest of my life to keep waiting for the real one… or maybe just have fun while i found him. I’ve been crying a lot, and i heard our song so many times that my ipod is kind of tired haha… i don’t know… i just decided to move on, maybe this bad feeling will go away some day…. :(