heal a broken heart

My ex and I met when he was only 15yr old. We were together for 9 years and had 2 beautiful daughters. I was a rough sometimes abuse relationship. After our 2nd child was born I decided to leave. I still Loved him dearly, but I had to think of my children. I got angry to hide the hurt. The only reason I left was because of my girls. I never stopped Loving him even after we both remarried. I longed for the day that we could be together again and share our cildren and grandaughter. His death was very sudden and as of yet unexplained. I did get a chance to speak with him about 2 weeks ago, but do you tell someone that you still Love them? When you are remarried.I never and now will never be able to let him know how I still felt after all these years. Our youngest daughter just turned 20. I have loved this man for over 30years. Now what do I do with this grief and who can I talk to that would understand?

Its been 8 yrs. and I still cant forget her. She had such a grip on my heart that I still cant pry loose.
To this day I sometimes have really sad moments. I cant see how that if you truly love someone, that you could discard them as if they were garbage and throw them away.
I feel like I will never recover and that I will never be in love like that again.

Nothing makes me happy anymore. And I feel guilty for doing something like this, I feel like I’m giving myself pity. But I can’t talk to anyone about it. No one.

I’ve come to believe that a broken heart never totally heals. I’ve moved on in many ways, but I can’t erase the memories.

2 years have past, she and I both with sombebody new, she cutted all links, trying to move on, but the pain never fades away

its important and will save time and keep me away from dwelling on things. i wish i had the power to just take broken hearts away.

forgive, forget, let go and move on. Love myself, be good to myself.

I’m okay :$

It has been 150 days since I saw him.
It has been 27 days since he left a song on my voicemail.
It has been 18 days since that woman called and filled my ears with evil things that I don’t even know if they are true.
It has been 3 days since I tried to reach him.

I can’t believe it’s really over. I want to believe that he’ll come back to me, but the will to believe is starting to fade.

I want to stop counting the days since we were together, and start looking forward to day when my broken heart will be whole again.

God, I miss him, though.

The problem is that you think you have time. I’ve been so busy these past few days thinking about everything that is not Nicholas. I have alot to do before the big move, and my mind has been constantly occupied. THere will be instances when his memory will linger in my heart and in my thoughts, but it is quickly replaced by some trivial, mundane emergancy that I am forced to attend to. And when I do, I push him so far back. He’s like my body jewellry, I’m so used to him there, that he feels like a part of my being.
I wrote a long letter to him, the “last letter”, and I think that helped me out alot. I managed to get out everything I was feeling, and I know for sure that what I feel for him is real and I do love him, but I have to live my life for myself.

I won’t send it ofcourse.