don't sweat the small stuff

This is going to be so hard for me to do, but I can see how this ties into so many other aspects of my life.

this is very hard to do but it can be done….....everything is pretty much small stuff…..Just be in the moment…it is a lifetime exercise…....

I rent a house that I have really love. Until lately and it’s kinda wearing me down. I have had issues with rats and actually just caught another on (the first one in about 6weeks) Wednesday. Had a water line leak that took 2 months for my landlord to find and when he found it it wasnt as bad as he thought. But when he dug up to fix the water lines he dug up my drive way. Which was a gravel driveway with not a lot of gravel on it to begin with. But now it has none so i got my car stuck in the mud last week when it rained. And yesterday my toile overflowed before work and later last night. I was washing a load of clothes and after they where done I put them in the dryer and off to the bathroom I went to get the towels that helped clean up the stopped up toilet mess. I walk in my bathroom and I discover 3 or 4 inches of standing water! Water pouring out of the toile the bath tub is full of water and overflowing along with the sink. Earlier in the evening when it stopped up for the second time I just sat and cried! It’s just been one thing after the next with that place and I had taken so much that I just sat and cried (for about an hour). But when I found the extreme mess at midnight last night. I didnt ever cry. It just kinda hit yeah things could be worse. So in a sense I did sweat the small stuff but I didn’t sweat the large stuff. Go figure!! Glad I rent at a time like this!!!

so true, but actually don’t sweat the big stuff either, trust in the universe, its just so friendly!!!

People are always telling me that the reason I have social anxiety is because I overanalyze things that really were never meant to be important. I think that I’m doing the right thing by taking people seriously- if someone says “You don’t know what you’re doing today” then instead of thinking “well, maybe they are in a bad mood, and they are just judging quickly because i made one tiny mistake”, I think… “oh my god they are right. I hate being here and since I don’t know what I’m doing I think I’ll go do something else that I’m good at.” This is basically how I came to quit my job. I feel that I need help but I want to overcome this myself, because I know once I get over the hump it will be simple.

I keep on doing this, when I can’t feel any anger about the bigger, more important issues in life. It feels somehow immature of me, or fearful?

Doing a good job today for this goal. My boss deleted the very important files from the shared folder that gotta be sent over to customers to sign off tomorrow. luckily,IT guy helped us to recover the files back in 2 hrs. I was a little panic with the situation. Maybe becoz my boss did it, not myself.:D

instead of being overly emotional about things I’ve been listening to my inner whitness and recognizing that some of my mental models dont make any sense, and much of my behavior has been self destructive because of it.

Re-examining my choices I find myself examining my options instead of going with the same old stuff that didn’t get me anywhere better than where I was.

Yesturday I left for an appointment an hour early and had to turn around and come home and then go back out. But I was fine with it, I was even kind of glad because I caught a few songs I missed from years ago while I was driving!

Today I was late for an appointment but I just called them and since they didn’t have anyone scheduled after me they let me come in late and it was no big deal.

In the past I would have held on to it, thaught about a million different things I could have said back that would have made me feel better about it later. Thaught about how that person may have been right about me. Had a snowball of thaughts that braught me down.

This time I let it go. Telling myself, “thinking it to death wont turn the clock back, take back what that person said, make me have said something else, or in fact, change a damn thing. And anyway, it didn’t hurt me, if I keep thinking about it, that guy will win.”