Have a totally different life by this time next year

a job that I like
contentment
happiness
love
interesting work
school
fun and good times
good health
time devoted to my interests
time to write regularly

specifics to come….

to have a good 08. but it hasn’t been so easy. i was still bitter after all of last years drama and then there was even more this year. and i’ve had some trouble just letting go of it.

i need to let the rest of this year be good and enjoy myself.

starting point

a year feels substantial, i can make differences in this time.
maybe get a job, make some money so i can go see my far-away neverland friends.
relax.
find something that i’m absolutely obsessed with and follow it..like an interest, not a person..hah
try things i’m unfamiliar with, explore EVERYWHERE.
have fun and be happy with myself.

sounds doable :)

and despite a lot of effort on my part – NOTHING has really changed. I’ve even come close….so close…only to be disappointed yet again.

I am not very happy at the moment.I am currently stuck in the middle of nearly being there but not quite achieving fully what will make me happy,
What will make me happy at the moment would be,
1)A Boyfriend,
2)A holiday,(which i will go on in June after waiting 4 yrs for it)!!!
3)Graduating from college with a top honours degree,
4)Having more friends and having a very active social life involving different things.
5)Living in an apartment or independently away from home.
6)Getting a top Accounting Job in a Top 5 acounting firm.
7)Having achieved some of my 43 things that I want to do.
Thats it so far, if I achieve most if not all of them I will be very happy!!!
and to be honest they are all in my hands it is really up to me whether I achieve these or not. Soon I will be 23, i think it about time I start living MY life instead of doing what others would like me to do.!!!

I really need to focus on the things that are going to actually make life different by the end of this year. Focus on them, and forget about eating. There is nothing so scary about that, but it does tend to be one or the other.

There is a lot to be done, but I think some kind of difference is inevitable – I am just so restless about the way things are. Whether it’ll be total or not will come down to how much I commit to the various paths I can develop over the next 7 months.

Today is May 5th of 2008.
Right now, I’m happy.
Kind of..

I’m living in a small town I want to get away from. I’m not single. Right now thats my reason to be happy. Him. He makes me happy. But I dont know how long that’ll last. He has a history of being unfaithful… And currently, theres this group of girls thats picking on me. And its just me and mom at home. I’m doing just okay in school. So thats me right now. In a nutshell.

In a year, maybe all of that will change.
Who knows what May Fifth 2009 will bring..

I will have lost weight,stopped binging so much,become less lazy,be more confident,be happier,have new friends,have new clothes,have travelled to atleast two countries, have learned a new language, have discovered what I really want to do with my future :)

This time next year sounds good. But totally different? Now that I’ve signed up to this I’m not sure what it means! :-D

I’d like to be wealthier, more relaxed, healthier and kinda secure. I don’t know how “totally different” that is. Maybe I need to think about what I’d like to change and what – if anything – I’d like to keep the same. Hmmmmmm.

Hopefully I will have graduated from college and will have started a full time job, and studying for my Acca exams