quit smoking for good

I’ve decided to call the health insurance service in for this one….I can’t seem to give it up =( I say I need to quit and end up smoking more! To be fair (and yes I know this is an excuse), my hubby and I are totally stressed out but we HAVE to quit! For ourselves and our kids!!

I haven’t had a cigarette for two weeks!!!

I quit for about 2 months and then I buckled under pressure. My boyfriend things I haven’t smoked for about 3 months and I hate doing it behind his back. So here I go. I’ve gone 1 day so far.

Well I guess today is day one of getting ready to quit…. I just ordered Allan Carr’s quit smoking book because I have heard amazing things and started taking Chantix as well. I am so so so tired of being a smoker. I hate it my husband hates it. I started smoking when I was about 15 and thirteen years later here I am. I have quit several times in the past. Once for three years cold turkey because my boyfriend at the time wanted me to, so needless to say because I didn’t do it for myself the minute we broke up I went and bought a pack of smokes to spite him (stupid I know). More recently I quit for a year using Chantix. I started smoking again about four months ago out of stress and blah blah blah. I went right back to my pack a day habit, unbeleivable. Smoking hurts my health, my husbands health, our bank account, and aides in my laziness ( just one more smoke and then I will start doing xyz). As I write this I light up a smoke, it’s by far my biggest vice.$2548 is what I would spend this year at my pack a day habit! ($7 per pack here) That money could go toward any number of my other goals, pay off debt, save, buy a house etc. But as Winston Churchill said “Sucess is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm” So in a way I have already succeeded, I have failed several times and here I am again wanting to succeed but knowing it is a journey that may result in failure once again, but I will not lose my enthusiasm to try again. Just knowing that if I fail I am not a failure is helpful-and knowing that I am capable of this goal is powerful. Proving this to myself and quitting for good will be amazing. Once I quit my goal is stay smoke free for 1 year and then 2 so on and so on and so on….

I’ve been making great progress at 23 now

I suck at this goal.

I have tried to quit smoking many times and having failed it seems the task gets more and more daunting. I am sure that I could quit, but the thing is the fear, the fear of not having another cigarette, what is life going to be like, how will I handle some situations, do I actually get some kind of pleasure from it and if so will I be missing out on something. I am such an idiot though, when I think of the fact that if I don’t stop, I may be missing out on years of my sons life and I wonder how that could compare to missing out on “the joys of smoking”

Starting taking Bupropion to help with my nicotine addiction. So far I’m 4 days cigarette free!

Jun 8, 2006… and still no cigarettes. Yeah :)

So for the past 2 weeks i have been doing really good. Was doing really good… I ran out of patches and had to use the nicotrol inhaler – I dont like it. Makes me want to smoke even more. Yesterday I had a moment of weakness and bought a pack. I was really disapointed. But i forgave myself. I got paid today- going to buy more patches tonight and move forward.