quit smoking for good

This may seem pathetic but I’m going to post as often as I need to. That’s a few hours in and the nicotine gum is in my mouth! So far so good!

Ok, I’m going to count last week as a false start. If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again! Here goes again. I won’t smoke again.

I’ve been back and forth on this goal for twenty years or so. I’ve read the book, used NRT and stopped for 2.5 years, gone back to it.

I’m fed up feeling guilty all the time and the guilt is self-imposed. I’ve got to stop or I know it will kill me and leaving my wife and three young kids isn’t what I want to do right now.

So, I’ve got two patches and some gum to see me through the first few days and then I’m on my own. I’m going to post here every day until I’m off nicotine for good. Here goes…

i haven’t touched the fags for two days now. no cravings. just bored and eating alot. i was always only a casual smoker but in the last few months i have taken my fitness level to new heights and this demanded more from my body – my lungs but most importantly my mind. i have realized through playing sport that when my body feels as if it can go no futher my mind kicks in propelling my body forward, and hence my life…it’s quite amazing amazing this thing i have learned – choice! and that ultimately i am in control of the choices i make!

So it’s been a month, zero smokes! That book is amazing. I was beyond skeptical when I started reading it, but that is all it took. I didn’t need anything else! I highly recommend it!

I’ve decided to call the health insurance service in for this one….I can’t seem to give it up =( I say I need to quit and end up smoking more! To be fair (and yes I know this is an excuse), my hubby and I are totally stressed out but we HAVE to quit! For ourselves and our kids!!

I haven’t had a cigarette for two weeks!!!

I quit for about 2 months and then I buckled under pressure. My boyfriend things I haven’t smoked for about 3 months and I hate doing it behind his back. So here I go. I’ve gone 1 day so far.

Well I guess today is day one of getting ready to quit…. I just ordered Allan Carr’s quit smoking book because I have heard amazing things and started taking Chantix as well. I am so so so tired of being a smoker. I hate it my husband hates it. I started smoking when I was about 15 and thirteen years later here I am. I have quit several times in the past. Once for three years cold turkey because my boyfriend at the time wanted me to, so needless to say because I didn’t do it for myself the minute we broke up I went and bought a pack of smokes to spite him (stupid I know). More recently I quit for a year using Chantix. I started smoking again about four months ago out of stress and blah blah blah. I went right back to my pack a day habit, unbeleivable. Smoking hurts my health, my husbands health, our bank account, and aides in my laziness ( just one more smoke and then I will start doing xyz). As I write this I light up a smoke, it’s by far my biggest vice.$2548 is what I would spend this year at my pack a day habit! ($7 per pack here) That money could go toward any number of my other goals, pay off debt, save, buy a house etc. But as Winston Churchill said “Sucess is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm” So in a way I have already succeeded, I have failed several times and here I am again wanting to succeed but knowing it is a journey that may result in failure once again, but I will not lose my enthusiasm to try again. Just knowing that if I fail I am not a failure is helpful-and knowing that I am capable of this goal is powerful. Proving this to myself and quitting for good will be amazing. Once I quit my goal is stay smoke free for 1 year and then 2 so on and so on and so on….

I’ve been making great progress at 23 now