trust again

Once I met two special boys
Who captured my heart.
But deep down I knew
They and their Dad could not be apart.

They brought with them
so much love and so much joy.
But I knew Dad could not be separated
From his two loving boys.

When they left I cried.
For them and their Dad
And I hated seing their father
Being so sad.

So when Dad went back to see them
I knew he would stay
My heart is broken
But it was the only way

My love for the three of them
Runs deep in my heart
This love is everlasting
Even though now we are apart

There is not a day that goes by
Where I don’t think about them
And start to cry.

I spend my days feeling empty and sad
But I know those boys are happy
To be with their Dad

I pray that his boys are happy
And he is happy too
That there is peace among them
Their whole life through

But I will still love them,
worry and cry
No one can take that away from me
Even as time goes by
By Susan Tucker aka Raindncr

Part of learning to trust again is opening yourself to hurt. You will be hurt. But part of the beauty of life and a worthwhile existence is the risk. You can’t feel unmeasured pleasure without the risk of hurt – without that contrast, we don’t know how to truly appreciate and relish in the good times.

Trust everyone until they give you reason not to. Not blindly and stupidly, but don’t live behind a wall. I’ve found that I had been missing out on some pretty awesome people by not giving them the benefit of the doubt.

Don’t be offended when others don’t reciprocate your initial trust. They’ve been hurt in the past, too.

Remember: just because one friend / lover / family member hurt you doesn’t mean everyone else will. Every other person is as much an individual as you are.

i don’t know if i’ll ever trust again the way i used to. but i want to…i’m just scared.

The person I thought I could truly trust broke my heart. It took me so long to trust them and after all was said and done, it turned my world upside down. I have such a hard time trusting people. I have been let down time and time again. So I stopped trusting people, but does this make me emotionless? This wall I built up, so afraid someone is going to come along and break it down and just walk out of my life. I started to trust again, but that scared the heck out of me…and left me running in the opposite direction. I’m still broken hearted and feel like love just ends in heartache. My outlook on life has changed.
This trust issue has me doubting so many things, especially since I myself am like a vault, whatever is said to me in confidence remains in me and that’s it. I feel if you can’t have a relationship that consists of trust, then what is the point. I started thinking is it too much to ask for someone to keep your life to themselves?..and the answer I came up with was NO way, and if it is to hard then its another mistake to add to the books.

2007 has been a very hurtfull year. I lost someone who i LOVED AND STILL LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART!! I am trying to move on but I am hurting so bad even though i understand. He didnt tell me he wasnt comming back. And if he walked through my door right now, I still would take him back. He moved back to Missouri to his boys and reconsiled with his wife. Didnt tell me anything. Through this I learned not to trust or give in to anyone. My divorce is over. And tryin to start over. But sometimes sadness takes over and i still cry. Guess I am just crazy. i never ever in my life been heart broken and i will not go through it again.All I do is work. No life still so sad and in the deepest part of my heart the love I feel for this guy from Missouri will never die. How do you fall out of love

my fiance used to drink a lot. he quit over three years ago and had done a great job of staying sober. Recently he had his first relapse and i am scared to death. While drinking, he used to lie a lot. He did a lot of bad things while drinking that he absolutely wouldn’t do while sober. He says he is still done with drinking even after the relapse. I believe him because it was only one night and he got sick….and he admitted to me that night that it happened. My problem now is trying to get back that trust that we created over the last three years. I don’t want him to go back to the way things used to be.

Every man I see now has the potential to be a monster…very unhealthy and not fair to the wonderful men out there who have done absolutely nothing to me.

The last month or so, I started attending church again. And thanks to God, I have begun to trust again. I’ve prayed about this and other issues I have and he has really helped me.
When we put things in the Lords hands, things will start to happen.

I am 39 years old and I’ve spent most of it depressed and anxious. I don’t trust God and I think that filters down; I don’t really trust anyone (parents, wife, my children, my boss, my colleagues…and this is messing up my life and others big-time.

Today, I decided (after many years) to seek professional help…I have too much to lose and I CANNOT spend another 39 years, not even another year, living like this.

is it possible? i don’t know but i know what “trust” mean…