Kick my sugar habit for good

goals!

and I didn’t buy one unhealthy thing! I felt so smug as I came in with my (reusable) shopping bags of tofu and brown rice cereal and vegetables and rosehip tea, only to tune in to a piece on how British supermarkets are “discouraging” healthy eating by cutting prices on sugary and fatty foods. Ha ha!
In the shops, I passed the chocolate / biscuits/ chocolate biscuits aisles with my head held high, and the funny thing was, I didn’t even want to buy any of them. It was as if there was a little voice in my head saying “diabetes isn’t just sticking needles in yourself every day, you know; it can lead to blindness and heart disease, too”!!
Of course, now that I’m back home again, they suddenly seem infinitely more desirable and I am lamenting the fact that I didn’t buy any; but I have settled myself down with an infusion (twinings, don’t you know – it’s the best the Japanese can come up with) of strawberry and mangoes and the certainty that cravings will pass.
Eventually. Won’t they?!!

went to German cafe in the mountains on Saturday, where they have sandwiches on rye bread and bagels and everything. We sat outside and listened to a friend playing a jazz set under the fairy lights and an unnecessarily cold wind. Inside was a little wooden shop filled with beautiful wooden kitchen gadgets and packets of pompous organic (wooden?) teaflakes in minimalist boxes, costing ten times as much as normal tea and probably tasting a bit like piss (or wood). I’m sure you know the kind of place.
Anyway, I opened my bag later that evening to find that K had bought a little bar of Brazilian pink peppercorn and dark chocolate from the wooden place, and slipped it into my bag when I wasn’t looking.

This was very touching, but does perhaps call for a reassessment of bag security.

The chocolate is still in the fridge.

edit: we (ahem – I) ate the chocolate, and it wasn’t very nice. It tasted of peppercorns. Chocolatiers of the world take note: peppercorns and chocolate is not a great combination.

K bought biscuits! That’s against the rules, surely!

and now I feel rubbish and hungrier than ever!

Hopefully this will remind me and my body why sugar is not a good thing!

and counting!!

There were super luxury chocolate champagne truffles, and I partook!

Better than ruining my sugarless halo with a kitkat or something of that ilk, I suppose! What’s more, they were absolutely, unashamedly delicious, and I’m glad I ate them!

Life is so all about comprimising one’s long term goals and principles for short-term sensory delight!

to go! I’m not feeling any amazing benefits as yet, I think because I had already made a big effort to cut down on sugar under YG’s (unknowing) mentorship! But it feels good to know that I am saving my teeth in the long run! No one wants to have to go for dentures at 35! Also, the running is going well – am even doing strength training every other day under the (unknowingly) watchful eye of the iron leopard – so I am starting to appreciate food as fuel and sugar as horse poo being poured into my beautiful machinery!
I actually had a super chocolate craving yesterday and considered sneaking off to the shops and eating some and then not reporting it here. But that, I decided, was not only rather pathetic, but actually the action of a bonafide addict. So I resisted! And then I had to go round to the neighbours and eat that effing sugar cube in the name of respect for my host culture! I really hope it won’t have undone all my good desugarfying work!
Just have to take it one day at a time.

sans sucre starts here.
The six month shopping goal has shown me that amazing levels of self-restraint are possible after all! I’ve discovered that it’s easier for me to stick to something if I’m counting down rather than counting up, so, to start with, I’ll be doing 24 more days until the end of July.
I’ve already told K all about it and he is under strict instructions to keep an eye on me. Knowing he knows that I’m supposed to boycotting the stuff seems to be helping so far – under his watchful eye I have so far resisted a big slice of chocolate birthday cake, numerous sweets and biscuits, a slice of cake at the coffee shop, and a trip to mr donuts. I’m really happy the weekend offered so many temptations because it showed me that I can resist them, and that I won’t be ostracised from all social settings for sticking to my suger-free guns.

Only 23 and a half days to go, dum dee dum dum!

Today, I ate S&P cookies! EEEEEERRRRRRKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!

^{have to start again tomorrow.!}