give unconditional love

Growing up I was taught the meaning of unconditional love… to love someone no matter what, no matter their faults, no matter the grievances… Along the way I have been scarred a lot from people who have taken advantage of my unconditional love… People have lied, cheated and stolen from me and over time I have lost that ability to love someone no matter what… and now it is me that has received unconditional love and I have abused it… I want to find that Love again and I want to be able to blindly trust the one that I give it to… I want to be consumed by unconditional love and be able to give it. My love has come with rules and guidelines that my mind has set up to protect my heart from being hurt again… but my heart has healed it is my mind that can’t let go of the past… I one day I will have the strength to break down the barriers of my heart and heal my mind so that one again I can give unconditional love as it was so freely given to me…

How come I do a lot for somebody and I always end up being betrayed or taken advantage of? I am not asking for more in turn, just acknowledgement that he felt I loved him.

And the worse thing is, they cannot even explain why they were doing it…