express my authentic self

If I am not I, who will be?
- Henry David Thoreau

Im all here in moment wohooooooo! :)

This is important to me…The balance which was once is regaining itself once again in a different light.

...”reconnect to my core of consciousness” as if i am disconnected from it; as it is possible to be disconnected at all. is it?
this goal is about expressing my sameness and my uniqueness. it is about my life purpose. but i strongly feel i must finish my decluttering project first. it is like reclaiming my life back, no more (and never more) being scattered and fragmented.

this goal is about rejecting fictional self; rejecting all “oughts” and “shoulds”, false image, ego.
new name is much better.

i had very sad dream about a small bird.
that dream shaken me deeply. it has several interpretation, the most important one is that i need to be aware of the concequences of my choices, to be fully aware of price of less good everyday choices i make! and to think, am i really willing to pay that price?
other interpretation is to stop being a rug (calling it a good thing at the same time) and use my own discernment
trough that dream and also trough Yoga Nidra i contacted my own heart.
how it feels, not how i want it to feel.
it was first time in some session that i do not project something somewhere, e.g. pleasant feelings like in Reiki, doing actively someting to feel nice, relaxed, fine. this was the first time i stopped “helping” some part of me and just listened.

my heart is full of wonderfull things but i was so surprised to see it is so sad, so deeply sad. isolated. unheared. that feeling of not being heard from other people – that is feeling of my own heart! not being heard from meOMG

all the wonderfull things i can do just to myself…!
:)

my life passions are not high on my list of priorities, it is more sort of under the carpet. before i was even (embarased to admit) convinced that it is wrong to want to achieve so many different goals, spent so much time in indeceivness.

Now I understand I don’t have to choose among all my dreams – I am entitled to live them all! Hence my renaissance goal.

What am I afraid of? Everyone is. But not everyone let their fears to stop them. Behind all theories I need to go forward and reach and stop hiding! If I give up noone will care, anyhow – but I will know.

...is strong as much as I let it! It is as strong as I identify myself with my roles, my expectations.

I can still have expectations (and I do) but I do not need to depend on outcome.

I can choose what I identify with.

The authentic self is the you that can be found at your absolute core. It is the part of you not defined by your job, function or role. It is the composite of all your skills, talents and wisdom. It is all of the things that are uniquely yours and need expression, rather than what you believe you are supposed to be and do.
- Dr.Phill

...of lots of resentments toward different people. it is like jungle of resentment! i’m surprised, never being aware of those feelings

i can’t actually describe this feeling, it is like i am standing in my shoes more firmly. this is about rejecting some extra burden, in fact all burden!
If you want a cup of hot tea, you must first empty the cup.
- Ancient Chinese saying
this is about food, too. you are what you eat. after whole week eathing fresh cooked/chopped food for each meal i am different person, too.
this is about being relaxed and rested. on this one i could work more :)

OK before i start writing this: yes, i admit i am DrPhil ’s fan. I enjoy his autoritathive style, i find it so comforting!

The authentic self is the you that can be found at your absolute core. It is the part of you not defined by your job, function or role. It is the composite of all your skills, talents and wisdom. It is all of the things that are uniquely yours and need expression, rather than what you believe you are supposed to be and do.