Not let the past effect my future

As off today someone I hoped would be in my life forever is now part of my past. It’s scary how small the world is…
I found out that this guy isn’t anything like he said he is. Everything is a lie from the things he told me to the promises he made.

I wanted to put this comment under this heading for the sole purpose of making sure he is in my past, he won’t affect my future and he will stay in my past…

Also if I’m stupid enough to let him back into my life this will be a reminder of why I wanted him out of my life for good. I would love to have someone in my life but at the same time… it must be someone I can trust. I this guy I don’t think I will ever trust again.

I’ve recently had a relationship with a guy who i thought was amasing. But he didn’t feel the same way about me. The sad part is that I still love him. I met someone else, it’s really soon and I’m not ready for another relationship. But this guy is so brilliant. He adores me and really likes and makes time for me but gives me space as well.

But he isn’t the guy I want. Although I hardly saw my ex and when he broke up with me we said some really nasty stuff to each other…I want him back. Have you ever had the feeling that this is the “one”. Well I felt that the first time I saw him. And when we eventually got together that feeling just got stronger.

Now I’m left holding on to him… He made it really clear that we will not get back together but that doesn’t just make the way I feel for him disappear. It hurts that he has just moved on with his life ad forgotten about me. I don’t know if he has someone else in his life and I don’t want to kow either.

I need to let go of him, let go of “us” to move on. To live in the present, to dream about the future and to leave the past where it belongs…in the Past.