be more brave

Wow, I was, and that sort of went downhill. Nice. Go me. I’m a bit depressed and slightly shocked (for some reason), but I’m also thinking this may be for the better. Hopefully!

I’m being more brave about writing, but I wish I could be more brave about showing my feelings.

so i went to this tutoring place for an interview thingy… and the perosn there was a disaster… she had a student there when i got there and was sleezy and talkked to the kid in a baby voice and ya. sand she was pushy a bit and not a good business woman. so im not gonna work for her.. its prolly gonna screw her over a bit. but i got really mad about it… i think i have passion for tutoring or managment. i think i could do a better job. maybe thats what im all mad about? i dunno but its funny. i never get this worked up about anything usually.. so im making a note of it. noted.

I find myself hesistating whenever the moment of truth comes along. i do this in my book too. i put it down right when something big is gonna happen! right now i am writing this instead of sending off my resume for a job i want. ARg.
reminds me of the quote “do the thing to have the energy to do the thing” so im off to get some food.

I have just graduated from university for half of a year ,I discover that I am not courageous enough and lack of confidance in doing the job,I have to completely change my own spirits state and make myself more courageous.

I need to be brave more than anything right now, and it’s so hard. A friend of the family, whom I am extremely close with, has had leukimia for the past 15 years of his life. He is going to die within the next couple of weeks, and he is going to live in our study on a gurney. I want to be there for him, and to hold his hand and just comfort him in his final days. But it’s just going to be so hard. Death is scary. Expecially when it dwells in your own home.

I am much more brave than I was at the beginning of this year.

I started going to the gym all by myself! :)
I would have never done this before but now I feel quite good about this. Yay!