accept the things I cannot change and change the things I cannot accept

I’m currently accepting something will not change and so deciding to change myself since I don’t accept those terms.

I’m most disappointed in his character. It’s way more sad that I’m losing my best friend than my love. I know that I had good reason to believe it was worth giving another go, and now I know that he doesn’t have the ability to fix himself even though he wants to. But I don’t regret giving it another try, even though it turned out so horribly painful. Because the pain will fade, but the “what ifs” never would have.

I’m proud of my strength, and even though I’ll always love him, I know that I won’t allow him back in. I’m completely satisfied that it cannot work. I hope someday you break the chains you bind yourself with… but now, after seven years, I free myself from you. Goodbye, my sweet man.

My mom acts like she’s constantly miserable and can’t be bothered to even have a conversation or anything representing a relationship with her children. It’s still sad, even though I’m grown. I’m partly sad for myself because I only get one mom and she pretty much sucks. But I’m mostly sad for her because she chooses to live in her miserable little bubble. What a sad life. This is her choice though, so I will choose to consciously accept this so I don’t have to deal with it over and over again.