keep a paper journal

I got a red Debden journal from my Aunt & Uncle.

Yay!

...not on a blog. And when I mean thoughts I mean the inner thoughts of a person, not merely just the everyday things that most people blog about.

I want to be able to write on a paper journal the way that I did back in the olden days (10 years ago!) when I kept a paper journal (I even had a Mulan themed one!). I wrote everything and anything in my journal: teenage love, teenage angst, my dreams and aspirations, my sadness and truimphs.

I’ve kept a LJ blog for over 5 years now but yet I can’t divulge every little thing that I’m feeling on LiveJournal. It just isn’t the same!

I want a paper journal…where should I buy one?

it’s so nice writing things without knowing that they can maybe read it.

I dont do it as often as i could, but i know if i really need to my paper journal is always there for me to write in. So im striking a line through this ‘thing’ to make way for something new. :)

I accomplished my goal, for the most part. I kept it until I didn’t need the words looking back at me to understand what I was feeling. It took three months, two weeks, and a few days without him to really understand it all.

I won’t say that I have complete understanding. I’m still confused as to where I stand and what exactly I’m feeling, but I’m thinking and feeling and it’s the first time in a long time.

I’m not writing (in the journal) every day now, but I write when I need to.

It’s comfort but not a requirement and I like that.

As much as I want to do this, I find it so hard to make time to write. I always let myself get away with excuses not to do it … I’ve missed almost two weeks now.

Starting again tonight, I’m going to try to put aside a few minutes each day to write a little.

_“You will never ‘find’ time for anything. If you want time, you must make it.”
- Charles Buxton_

I love keeping a paper journal, but I always get caught up in life and forget for a few days or weeks, and eventually, whatever I started becomes a past memory. This year, I decided to make it my resolution to keep and use a paper journal every day. So far, I haven’t missed a day (a whole nine days, I know, I should be excited haha). But I technically started my resolution a little early by starting my journal when I had the idea (December 14th). I’ve got a good start. I hope I can keep it up!

i have 9 diaries so far. i’ve been writing ever since i was 13..and it has helped alot. like whenever im sad or happy i make it a point to write down my feelings, express my emotions and thoughts.

and its not all personal stuff although there’s a whole lot of personal stuff in there too. wen i 1st started i didnt make it a point to hide it…no wait . i did hide it but my lil brother was snooping around, found my diary and read it then blabbered about my ‘My dream guy’ entry to dad. i was as embarassed as embarassed could be.

since then i keep in in my cupboard. waaaaay back in my cupboard. although sometimes i hv this fear of being found out.

so to be safe i dont write all my personal stuff in there. i only write not so personal stuff, like bitching. but my uber secret stuff- i type them out so they’re safe somewhere in my computer.

writing is therapeutic. i usually feel better after writing. and oh…the pleasure of going down memory lane, reading all those old entries , curled up in ur bed on a rainy day…and reading about YOU…from the reader’s point of view and discovering something new about yourself. that’s therapy.

this one to ‘blog’.

in that I’ve gotten into the habit of writing in it every day, but I think I am going to hold off until I actually finish the notebook (not something I’ve ever done before!). At this rate it’ll only be two or three more weeks.