Make and manage promises like my life depends on it

I’ve been very good with this goal in the last few months. There are a few things that I have said I will do but dont get around to doing (like the washing up). But overall, I havent piked on anyone in ages. I think I have learnt my lesson from this goal – dont say things without thinking through them first.

However, thinking in the last few days, I realise that this goal is actually distructive for me. Im the type of person who puts too much emotional investment into what other people think/feel about me. and this goal is all about other people. Its time to start living for me, not for my obligation to them.

its done.

bq.”more thinking, less saying yes, more saying no or I’ll have to see closer to time…”

I thought that was the way out of overcommitting too, but then I found that I was becoming a really negative person, just saying no to everything, even when I had a nagging feeling that I could knock at least a few things easily and quickly but afraid that they’d pile up too quickly.

So that’s why this blog post about a middle ground between yes and no was so helpful – I’m practicing putting this in practice and have noticed little changes for the better. For example, I just agreed to build two different websites for friends pro bonno, but they bartered for things of equal value (identity and business card design from one, real estate help from another) when I outlined exactly what my time was worth.

in the last week I have pulled out on two of my friends.

I’ve been editing this story for a Eden, however in the last few months I’ve hit a stop. Its just not happening, and I think its a bit unfair for me to keep saying ‘Im doing it’. so I finally got the guts up to tell her that I cant do it any more. She took it really well and so Im not feeling so bad about that.

Last night I said I would go dancing with a friend as moral support (since her ex would be there) and I pulled out a few hours before hand. I felt really bad, but she seemed to be okay with it. I know she will rib me for a long time however….

Its not that I want to stop feeling guilty for pulling out on people, but I really want to stop and think before I say Im going to do something. (cause I’d like my word to be as good as a promise) To realize that I actually cant do everything that people ask me to do. becuase then I get to the point when I have put myself and my health aside for far to long and just collaspe with exhausting.

more thinking, less saying yes, more saying no or I’ll have to see closer to time…..

i feel like Im really failing at this goal right now. There are a few things I’ve said that i would do for ppl online, and I havent. Now I know that thats not ‘promising’ but to me, my word is a promise. so Im not feeling very content with myself at the moment. but this also means more time online, and i was wanting to cut back. sigh lose-lose situation, ne?

well, there are 2 promises I must fill in the next few days –
1) edit another chapter for a person online
2) obtain a number of quotes for the physics society ball

gambatte!

and start small

I have been soooooooo bad lately. I said to a girl I would edit her story, and told her the date I would send it back to her, and now its like a week late…. man im bad. Maybe I just need to stop making these promises in the first place. You know, dont take on too much like I tend to do. :(

why is it when you leave somewhere, ppl seem to come out of the woodworks and want to hang out…. just when you are busy going?????

I’ve been pretty good, but i know there is one person in particlar that i havnt kept any promises to.. and i do feel bad about it. but right now, i just want to sleep.

Its going to be a big weekend – socializing and doing all the little things that need to be done before leaving a country….

I was asked if i was able to help with the junior high’s open day, but it wasnt confirmed until friday if i was needed. I had said, that no matter what, if they needed me i would help.

but it was all confirmed at 120 in the morning… i shouldnt have been up that early… and then i knew i wouldnt be able to sleep in… so i really didnt want to go, but i made myself, and i did have a good time.

next promise made – meet some girls for lunch on tuesday. ganbatte!

becuase I am so good at breaking promises. I am the eternal piker. I always find an excuse not to go to some thing i said i would. I never write when i say i will.

I make so many promises, just little things, that i end up breaking. I should just be truthful in the first place and save myself the trouble of getting out of something, or stick to my word.

I also need to buy a shirt that says “Pike – dont do anything” its a nike send-up…. pity i cant find a picture to show you….