Get to know myself

If I don’t know who I really am then how can someone else.

But I think I am finally comfortable in my own skin. Yes, I intend to lose weight. But basically…I like ME. I have a few bad habits but overall…I like me. It has taken a long time to come to this point.

Recently that I need people more than I thought, but I also NEED alone time. It is NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLE to get that when you live with two small children and three other adults. Sigh. Well, next up: how to make time alone for myself and also how to find a new group of friends.

I’m tired of focusing all my energy on other people. I want to get to know myself again…These next few months are all about me!

I have been covering it reasonably well, but you know, it isn’t good to suppress things really. One way or another, they tend to come out. I’ve had some anger issues lately and I think I just need to work this out and let it out before it eats me alive. I just need to figure out how to work out the anger and the stress. I’ve tried a lot of things but nothing has been helping lately.

I guess that it really isn’t surprising, but I’m discovering some unpleasant things about myself in this exploration. I suppose that isn’t all bad – now I know what to work on! :-P

I’ve forgotten who I am in the shuffle.

I’ve discovered that I am much stronger than I thought I was.

I’ve discovered that I can do, and bear, much more than I thought – and without complaining! (Much to my husband’s relief, I’m sure! :-D )

I’ve discovered that becoming a mother will greatly increase your ability to just…do what needs to be done.

I’ve discovered that I can do things or face things as a parent, that I would have doubted my ability to deal with before.

I’ve discovered new depths about myself, and new depths of love.

I’ve discovered that you can indeed get plenty of sleep and still be tired! (But it is so worth it!)

It may seem like I do what I want but the truth is I been held back by the fear of what others will think. I am ready to be true to myself and give myself everything I want…but first I have to find out what it is I want!

I have the feeling I’m too old to feel this lost.