conquer a fear

The fear I want to overcome is being afraid in a romantic situation.
Oh, and I am afraid of sentimentality, too.
Lol has anyone seen Ranma 1/2 how he starts freaking out the second someone starts acting romantic? I’m like that.

i ride bikes now

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So, I am horribly (HORRIBLY) afraid of drowning. I am slowly learning how to swim, but am still scared of anything to do with moving water. Well, I went camping at the la jolla indian reservation this weekend and went tubing down all the rapids! Even the huge one I was deathly afraid of! I flipped over a few times, but survived! It felt so great to overcome the fear, and it was actually alot of fun. So much, I went down a few more times!! :D

I’m not scared to go to ceremony anymore.

There were lots of people i didn’t know at my wedding and i didn’t even think about it. Wasn’t nervous at all.

I reach to shake hands before others do.

I can smile and converse and look people in the eye.

I am much more confident all the time.

Life is so much easier and more enjoyable if you just relax and assume people like you. Even if they don’t it doesn’t matter because they’ll probably try to stay away from you anyway.

People that i’ve known for years are shocked at how in just a few months of being away i changed so much. They say i’m like a different person.

But marty is still embarrassed when i don’t automatically shake everybody’s hand and talk freely with them (as if i can actually remember anybody’s name). He says it makes his relatives think his wife is a snob. Well I’m okay with that. It’s who i am, I guess. He doesn’t see how hard i’m trying or how much i’ve changed for him already.

But thoughts like that keep me from trying my best to change what i can.

I just wish everybody wore name tags. It would make it so much easier to be friendly.

I can mark this goal completed when I can carry on a stupid chitchat-like conversation with somebody I have just met, without looking to somebody else to take over after a few seconds. Just let the chitchat take its course. When it has died of natural causes, then I can politely excuse myself.

Also, I have to be able to shake everybody’s hand and smile (a real smile) at the beginning of ceremony.

being friendly to strangers.