complete coping.org insecurity pages!

nice refresher course almost!
did give me a boost in self if you know what i mean!

And left it at work. go figure.. but i can make a digital one tomorrow. and just explain myself digitally..??
not sure if that is such a bright idea. and with my “thoughts” i would say it’s not worth it if i am questioning it. so not to do it that way! my gut tells me to make it on paper and go visit each one who made a part of it and show them how they helped me.
Even at the cost i had to go threw.
so i think that’s how i’m going to do this! hope i can.

Well not yelled but expressed my feelings to one of my closes friends who is too busy to help me out! told him that it was Bull crap and i need this and i need the friend… so he shot me an e-mail! so now i get to make my collage and get this done buy monday so i can mark this off!!!

Wow i like this quote that is next to me

“You can’t change the music of your soul”-Katharine Hepburn
nice!

After the reminder i get some more :) Yeah go me go me!

So i have 3 things back and beleive it or not it’s from a person i don’t speak to frequently.. now that makes me feel bad because i don’t keep in contact!
I guess i have been a bad friend latley.. just so busy with my own life! i need to set aside 30 minutes everyday to call those who mean something to me! but i need a lot of things and being unlazy is one of them!
well i feel like a failure! non of my friends can help me out when i need it makes me feel like they are not friends of mine!
sad my boyfriend is on that list!!! lol but i know how lazy he is.. i guess i need to be a better friend and maybe i can get more replyes back!
oh well what can you do with a collage of 3 items! :) thanks to my older friends!

they ask you to ask your friends to send you stuff for a colloge that i get to make and they my friends get to send me a reason why they sent that item!
So it’ been a few days now and i asked for somestuff by this weekend!
I haven’t heard anything from anyone! not even my boyfriend!
so here is what i sent to who i feel are my closes friends
I need your help… it’s all apart of me doing my “Self Help” stuff!

So I need you to send or give me magazine pictures, sayings, articles, photos, prizes, trinkets, cards, drawings, objects, ribbons, etc., of what you think my various strengths, attributes, talents, skills, knowledge, virtues, competencies, or abilities that I possess.
Also can you send a short explanation with each item you send or e-mail me! :)
I need you to send me about at least 3 items! I also need this as soon as possible please try by this weekend!

I know we all get busy with life but I need this now more then anything!

Thank you!

Now before i jump to conclusions and say anything but right now this is depressing when my friends can’t even respond to this! Sort of HELPS me be more INSECURE i mean my friends can’t even find something to send me or even respond hey chick i’m too busy you know i care or something!
i mean WTF
Now i wonder if i even have any TRUE friends ummm sort of sad but hey i got 1 weeks if i don’t here back from anyone by then! well should i just not bother with them anymore! i mean that can’t do 1 thing i ask them to do for me when i need it most then what the heck are they there for! just an e-mail in my contacts! umm screw that i want true friends! none of this bs!

http://coping.org/growth/security.htm

i have notice sometimes i feel insecure about myself and this is unacceptable.. so going to fix it!
well off to reading and answering questions for free to understand and FIX ME!
:)