be

Today I feel a bit lost and I really dislike that feeling a lot!
I am trying to reflect and consider what everything means, to learn the lesson…but what I keep coming up with is life is hard sometimes, so deal with it, and enjoy the good things now.

It doesn’t take away the suffering involved with the feeling of confusion~ at least for me. I have been writing and combating my distorted thinking with rational responses, but I think this is some grieving coming up again…

so utterly painful.

Another way of saying “BE” where you are…

I sometimes trip out on my changing self~ it’s as if there are so many different aspects and different levels and processes happening all at once in many ways ~ it’s difficult to express without sounding completely nuts… (and even this sounds a bit crazy)

but when I try to define it, or even understand it completely~ I cannot, but if I just sit quietly and

BE~ then “I get it, in that moment”...and things are exactly as they are meant to be...

until next time…

to have a wonderful day!

Sleeping alone.
Sometimes I do not mind
sleeping alone,
because the bed and I fit just right…
and other times…
somehow that bed just
seems to grow,
and suddenly I am all
alone.

I don’t want to be anything, I just want to be.

a: passage from one state, stage, subject, or place to another : change

b: a movement, development, or evolution from one form, stage, or style to another

Clearly, in transition on all counts.

10,000 joys; 10,000 sorrows~
and how can one experience them all within moments of each other…

I just returned from a Mindfulness & Meditation Workshop for therapy groups…it was really wonderful to see and hear so many inspiring words and thoughts about integrating these practices into Western therapy...and to participate in all the different exercises.

We did a mindfulness and eating exercise where we became mindful of the many aspects of eating…such as the efforts and energy it took that brought the food to our plates, and we expressed gratitude on every level…we also explored our relationship with food, and finally as we were finishing up that part of the training, we were told to imagine that we were preparing a plate of food for the dalai lama or someone for whom we revered and cared about~ and that indeed…we ourselves are just as special and wonderful as that person…we should treat ourselves with such care as well…

I thought it was an interesting exercise~
it made me conscious... I will integrate much of what I learned into practice. :D