be a more considerate person

because my occasional anxiety in social situations causes me to malfunction.

There are times in my life where I have had to be selfish in order to survive, I think that everyone else does too. It’s hard sometimes to learn how to put yourself in someone elses shoes and try to feel what they are feeling. Sometimes it comes to me naturally, and other times I feel I can be ignorant and hurtful but not intentionally.

I was at the laundromat—and I usually get a lot of thinking done there because I have my headphones and sodukus to do (and generally it is productive and helps me think out things).

I decided today that I want to be more considerate of other people and less selfish. I used to be a very defensive person so if anyone even sad the slightest thing about me or to me I got super defensive. I am learning how to be more appropriate and how to react in a better manner. I would like to let more people go first. I would like to let more people have the right of way.

I would like to stop belittling people when they are not around. I am not much of a gossiper and suspect that I am defensive because I’ve learned to deal with some people who have belittled me by belittling others. I would like to stop talking negatively about other people because it doesn’t make me feel better—it only makes me feel worse and sucks away more energy than I am willing to give.

Sometimes, well ok all the time I think I could work on being a more considerate person I don’t think this is a goal I can ever totally complete it’s more of an ongoing thing, but either way I am going to put actual effort into doing this in my interactions with all people not just ones I care about everyone deserves consideration.