meet someone

i met several p from gov today for work. 1 m, a corp guard. vielle. and also from tw. at least new p.
i don’t know if gf called. ve been v unreachable. v bc n runnin around. still no 1 around. but goin out though, so waiting.

so far, most of my entries ve b bout him. m mtg pax but no one that i fancy
how can i meet more people n meet that special someone…

he didn’t call to leave a msg today. i don’t know if he tried calling though, cos i use another number after office hours. well… with me writing an entry about him everyday, he is obviously still on my mind… but i am glad i don’t have to urge to call him up though. i only want to meet someone to settle down. today i met 3 people thru friend at concert. we didnt really talk but it’s a good start.

he called again today. i didn’t answer. he called once at my office and once on my mobile. he is obviously annoyed that i’m not picking up. he said he bought a new phone. and he asked me whether i have received his sms and emails. i wanna call him back and tell him everything that i cannot stand about him, hoping that he will change. but what’s the point. he will be really pissed if i tell him. i’ve told him before, what things i don’t like about him. at first he said he is ok with me telling him. later he said, he would rather i keep my mouth shut, and just take everything in, because he is not going to change. he said he will only change if he really likes me. but after thinking about it, he said he has decided he does not want to change. but then later, he decided to presume that he didn’t say what he say, and he want to conintue to be with me … as friends… but actually more than friends… i can’t. there are a lot of things that i cannot accept about him. he also told me that if i expect flowers or praises from him, then don’t because he said he would never do that. if love to him has so many conditions, how can you call that love? and if i am so unsatisfied with it, how can i continue?

it’s k bday today. wonder if hes married already. anyways. today, i met someone new today. my insurance person. shes very talkative. then i also had lunch with b n his colleagues, so i met 2 new friends too. so 3 today. doing pretty good.

well…after disappearing for 4 days, he resurfaced, he called me once the first day and wasn’t able to reach me, ever since he called me a couple of times trying to reach me and yesterday and today, he is starting to get annoyed, writing msgs like ‘where are you, can’t find you’, ‘called many times, can’t find you’ ‘are you ok, cant find you’. i ve doubts about whether i shud stop talking to him like that. in the past, i ve been like that as a kid. but i’m no longer a kid and don’t want to drag things on. he doesn’t want to make a move and am very undecisive. i’ll not be able to change him and i don’t want him to either. he has made my life very difficult. i just want someone who is more mature than that. be able to be there for me consistently and not just show up when he feels like it and wants to. no games for me. if he doesn’t want to commit, he shud find someone else.

i met someone new today. he is roland, chris’ friend.

steve was right. i shud be goal oriented. n hang out with possiblities. single and young. that’s my but for now.

today i went to work concert, so happened my ex society is holding a concert. so :D to c my x colleagues. we took many pix. and after we went k. and i ran into sandy n hub. they were w a copain. beau.

he used to call everyday, now he only resurfaces from time to time saying that he is very busy. he was very busy before too but he calls. but then i guess when it dies, it dies. there is no going back. it’s not there , it’s not there. shudn’t force it.