reconnect with my body

... but I know this is a work in progress, and I made a lot of progress anyway!
It’s time for a little pat on my back, methinks.

I’ve been in psychotherapy for over one year now. My therapist has a bioenergetic background, so a lot of body work is involved. I’ve experienced many things, ranging from peculiar to plain stunning. For me at least: I’m sure that many people live this connection in harmony and awareness. I’m heading there little by little, and I’m positive that from now on working on myself can’t be disconnected from working with my body.

What I’m experiencing right now is a sort of clogging: there’s something between my chest and my solar plexus (between anahata and manipura, chakra-wise) that’s just compressing energy down, literally bloating my belly. This is nothing new, but now I can FEEL it, and sometimes it just gets unbearable, to the point where I find myself forced to throw up, or induce vomit, in order to feel better—and no, this has nothing to do with bulimia. I want to get rid of this feeling, that’s what I’m working on.

And I know this goal should be merged into “make things work with myself”, but for now I will keep them separate, until this (still rational) knowledge becomes an intimate certainty.

but empiricism is telling me that my relationship with my body could use some improvement.

(I’m overtly enthusiastic and experiencing a lot of weird and powerful stuff, but I’m not showing it on this entry because otherwise you people think I’m a tree hugger)

(duh!)