to be more spirtual

came to a close tonight..
I don’t share, the same faith, as those that, dedicated so much time and effort into making tonight special…...
I, really, didn’t have too..no one asked, when I dropped my daughter off, what faith we were…...or were not
They taught, that God was much like a firefly..who will light her way, even in the darkest of nights..I wanted her to know..know that there is a bigger person than ourselves..that we must reach out to..

may be too young to remember him…..
Some of you like me, remember his days with the NFL
Perhaps the Biggest guy, I have ever seen, that played a physical game like football…
Well, tonight, the former Chicago Bears defensive lineman William “The Refrigerator” Perry, is fighting for his life, suffering from a rare condition..tonight I am offering up my prayers for him and his family…...

Holy Thursday Mass, which was more somber than usual, in light of the tragic and senseless killing that week of three City of Pittsburgh policemen….the funeral for the three, stretched for miles, across the city….

toward this goal…..I cant say I am winning the battle…I don’t really pray much anymore..for I doubt there is a God that would look down upon me and say “Great Job”..
So, I will, try to fix, what I see that is wrong….
And this time, I will do so, by looking at myself first….
I will not leave myself out of the equation

probably forever as a goal…...
A reminder of who I was…10 years of catholic school hard to forget,,,,
I remember the day…..however, I felt like my life or I was “broken” never able to be fixed or put back together..
It was the day, that I watched, you..take away a child…from two parents, who were so much better at parenting than I and my husband…
I wondered, “Why?”
I will not say, that watching them suffer did not make me a better parent, for it did..but how sad…and pathetic is that….
I lost my faith that day, in a higher power that has ulitimate control over hapiness and sadness…
I, realized, that You, gave us a mere chance, and a mere shot at life….
Make every moment count
Unfortunately, I can never stand before you…and honestly say…
I forgive you for taking the life of that child too soon