learn discipline

I’ve been trying a little bit harder than usual at this, and I’m hoping that after a week of continuously bawling my eyes out I will find the will to push myself further. I don’t know where to begin. I suppose waking up an hour earlier, like I always plan to and never do, would be a good start. It’s about routines isn’t it? Even if it’s just baby steps like getting up early and having a good breakfast. Taking care of myself physically and mentally is key to success, as anyone will tell you.

This is what’s preventing me from finding work at the moment, that and lack of confidence. I’ve been sleeping late and being unproductive with my days. I’ve not really made any effort to keep to any sort of schedule so it’s been pretty much a free-for-all. I’ve just been lazy really. I’m easily distracted. In fact, it’s taken me about 15 minutes just to write this short entry because I keep thinking of stuff I can Google instead.

This is a big one! A difficult one! A possibly impossible one! I was never taught discipline and I’ve never practiced it which means I’ve never finished anything. Were I disciplined could I do anything I want, like write that novel and save money? I don’t even know where to begin. I’m so sporadic and easily distracted that I can’t imagine doing anything for long period of time, not even sleeping!

I so have discipline! :D

it’s definately there! discipline, hurrah!

ok I have to admit, not so much today, but hey, things can’t go perfectly straight away..

at least it’s way better than it used to be!

how on earth do people expect me to have discipline when I haven’t had to really do a single thing my entire life.
I never had a job besides babysitting.
I never had to have the discipline to do my homework every day, or to at least keep up with my homework when I was in high school.
my parents didn’t push me into doing my homework, as long as I passed the year.. which I did every year! (barely, may I add..)

but you know, uni is different and now I have to really study all of the sudden and I’m already messing up.
I simply CAN’T get myself to study every day and to do my assignments in time.

I really screwed up on semester 1, I failed one of the 3 subjects and for one other subject I still have to catch up on loads of assignments in order to pass it..
and now we’re in week 3 of semester 2 and I’m already behind AGAIN.

it’s SO frustrating to not being able to get myself to work. I just don’t know what it is to have discipline as I’ve never needed it..

but hey, I’m learning! I KNOW how much less stressful it is when I just do the assignments right away instead of putting them off again and again..

one day I’m going to listen to myself when I tell myself to do the assignments, and I’m not gonna listen to that other voice in my head who’s telling me that it can wait..

and it has been for some time, just didn’t think about putting it up my 43 list.

I can relate to your comment, sunshine and rain. I have always gone against the grain. Against the norm. Breaking out of society’s perception of what Is. yet, I feel it has cost me. It has cost me fulfilment, seeing something through. I am a succesful singer and songwriter. I play both guitar and piano. But I don’t play WELL because I am not disclined enough to practice daily. I really want to master this one. I know undoubtedly that it is ONE of my life focuses (self-chosen lessons). If anybody has ANY suggestions, books, audio etc – A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G – Lemme know…I am ready and willing!

i have no structure or discipline in my world infact the whole self discipline thing appears to be a phobia of mine..my best friend says i need to start with small things..and i do try…but as soon as anything starts to become a regime…i change it…because i hate routine and monotony..hmmm?!!?