Make happiness a priority

Because I am a mom I make sacrifices for my kids. Some of them are huge, but most of them are tiny things.

Even when the kids are at school I am doing things for them. Don’t get me wrong, they have their own chores and responsibilities.

Sometimes instead of making sure there are clean towels for showers I’d rather do something for myself.

Sometimes I feel like I exist to serve others. My kids aren’t really included in that statement-I am a mom, it’s my job to be a parent.

I am tired of pleasing others.

I want my time every now and then.

Maybe writing this will force me to do some things I want to do. Maybe some cobwebs in a corner, or some dust on a shelf can be signs of me doing my own thing instead of cleaning every waking minute of my life.

Ok, so I just re-read what I wrote and I made it sound like my life sucks. It doesn’t!
I just want to do more of my own thing every now and then.

I spent the morning gardening/weeding…. and over and over in my mind I am asking myself…. why am I feeling so unhappy ? why am I feeling so unhappy? welcome to the morning of my discontent…. I need to follow my passion, when I decide what exactly it is and make it into some sort of business so I can become financially independant, and I need to do something about my relationship with my husband… I am just not happy.

It is silly. Everything is in my control…..I just have to take charge of my life and start to make some changes.

I have been neglecting this goal.

I think for some sick reason, my inner self doesn’t really want me to be happy because she doesn’t think I deserve to really Be Happy.

I don’t know how to achieve this.

I worry too much about other people and what they think of me. How I’m perceived. I’ve got to stop.

Why shouldn’t happiness be your priority? Everyone deserves it. People need to worry less and embrace the good things they have. If you are a person who tries to keep other people happy, you need to learn that You come first in Your life. If you can’t make yourself happy, Who will?

the solution to many of my deep rooted problems. Where to live, where to work, should i get married…etc. Honestly, if I put my happiness first then the answers to these questions would come so easily.

Thanks for the invite – I LOVE THIS IDEA!!!!

I just turned 29, and realised I’ve been waiting my whole life for someone else to come along and start it for me. No more. I start here.

It’s me and my daughter against the world! Whatever I fight for is for her and that’s THE most important thing.

I feel an incredible sadness today….....