achieve something every day

Hi, I’m Keith. im 17. Try n put yourself in my situation. School Monday-Friday, expected to get A grades in all Honours level subjects. Come home, expected to face into 3 hours homework and study. I have about 3 hours to myself. Heres my problem: I don’t feel like I’m achieving anything. I know when I come to my exams it’ll all benefit me. But another year and a half of slogging through this monotonous routine? I drink on the weekends with friends, and thats about the only time I feel I’m achieving something: contentment. Or when I finish a novel. I want the time to do something, like learning guitar or HTML and CSS, but I’m also broke and if I gave up my weekend time, I could get a job. But like i said, my weekends are my lieing back time.

I need some advice on this ASAP.

after finishing uni I don’t have much to do. so I can keep my mind of top level.
Also I want my life to have a meaning. What is it that I really enjoy doing?

there are so many questions in my life now. what do I adress first?

health.
love
job ???

Definitely got one today with all that garden work – and it feels good !

Why do I rebel against routines even when I know that just tiny ones like washing the dishes straight after tea actually helps me feel more in control (ie less chaos). My father was a tyrant and I know I’m still fighting against being controlled – but I need to get my head round this cos I feel a whole lot better knowing I’m capable of keeping my home & family half decently.
I’ll get there !

Daughter called when I was busy and trying to get on with the stuff I’d made my goals for today. At first I resented the interruption, but it turned out to be really good for us, as we talked about her forthcoming wedding and how she’s turned around her previously messy financial situation. Talked about how she’s grown / learned stuff through her hard experiences and hopefully managed to help her acknowledge her achievements.
Enjoyed it, and still got outside to do my stuff.

I NEED to feel I’ve achieved something every day. I need to give myself credit for making things happen and build my self belief. I need to DO what I say I’m gonna do and prove to myself that I can carry things through.