Open my heart

Been through the worst shit. abuse from an alcoholic father. Another man who i thought was my father who left. Everybody even my friends left me to toil away into depression. But i know i need to live and be open to people in order to feel happy again,even though there may be disappointments i think it will be worth it

I have always been the type of person who abides by what is expected of me. The type of guy I date is no exception. Recently however, some one who is nothing like “my type” has shown interest in me. Should I “open my heart” to him? Or am I entertaining this possibility simply because I enjoy the attention and am feeling a little lonely? I still need to mull over this one.

naaah, no sign of me opening my heart
:(

got this link from Conekt’s entry – thank you

Great summary about how we are taught by consistent experience that you have to “buy” love with our words and behaviour, which is false, as “we can’t feel fulfilled by love we pay for.”

“As you tell the truth about yourself to other people—especially about your mistakes, flaws, and fears—they can finally see you as you really are. They can accept you and give you unconditional love, as indicated in this simple diagram:

“Truth => Seen => Accepted => Loved”

reading this article by open heart press on turning negative thoughts over to Jesus for transformation. turning the negative energy of the negative thought into a positive energy

I think it’s partly the trust in the power of something outside yourself that has such a transformational effect

a kind of uncomfortable feeling

something to come back to

what is my body holding on to?

what would happen if it just opened? just let itself be open?

why does it need to be closed?

how different would it be if it were open? what would that feel like?

what would it feel like if it were just open already and always had been?

it can look after itself

therefore giving up

♥

I saw a shiatsu / cranio-sacral therapist today, who told me that my back pain seems to be almost completely emotional, rather than caused by physical factors (such as bad posture or an accident).

This makes sense to me too.

Two shiatsu practitioners have remarked recently that my heart is extremely blocked.

Adding this to 43 things as I’ve noticed that goals I put on here have a tendency of being realised, so here’s to opening the heart and releasing

Thank you Y, thank you heart for starting to open, thank you life

thank you Yeen

This doesn’t seem like something one ever completes- but it’s a constant challenge in life. Recently been critically important and I’ve surprised myself. It’s scary to be so vulnerable but I understand why it’s worth the risk. Wow, amazing feelings of light, glow, happiness and peace.