Stop binge eating

Did not go very well.
I binged twice and threw up once.
It was all right until about 4pm, when I felt overwhelmed.
As usual, the moment right before the binge starts, it seems harmless…just a bite or two, how bad can it be? don’t I deserve to enjoy food a little bit? something sweet might give me the energy I need. It really seemed harmless. And then, as soon as I open the refrigerator, the nightmare begins. I stuff myself with all the food I can get my hands on, preferably high in fat and calories.

I know what triggered the crisis. It is the people/events that make me feel inadequate and worthless. But I cannot kill those people, right? I have to live with them, with their attitude, with their spite, with their envy. Binging is not a solution. Binging is their ally. Binging is the real enemy.

I also know what I should have done instead: I should have meditated and let go. I heard a voice in my mind urging me to meditate, but I dismissed it as an unnecessary precaution, so anxiety built up, and up, and up. And then exploded into a binge episode.

It goes without saying that, after the binge episode, all went pear-shaped. I did not even go to swim.

I’m not giving up.
Tomorrow I’ll start again. Tomorrow will be better.

This is the plan:
work, home, work, TV, 43T, meditation.
Unfortunately I’ll be very busy working so I won’t have many chances to unwind. But I won’t have much time to binge either.

This whole situation scares me. I feel powerless. I’m trembling inside. Getting fatter and fatter day after day. It’s become hard to find clothes that fit me. I feel heavy and weak. Oh so weak.

Tomorrow will be better.
Here’s a crazy idea: what if I woke up at 6.30 and went jogging from 6.40 to 7.40? Hmm… I like that. I might give it a try.

If I succeed in staying binge-free for the next three weeks no matter what, I’ll mark this goal as “done”.

I’m gonna do this simply because I have challenged myself. God, I hope it works!

Stop binge and over-eating on a regular basis! I really need portion control in my life

Yeah, I hate it. It gets me really suicidal and fucks me up. I feel like I have no self control. i dont vomit out what Ive eating cos I heard it damages your insides and rots your teeth. I hate it though. it makes me feel emotionally and physically ill. I binge eat because I feel so anxious, it gets so bad, that I have to eat something to actully do something because I feel so anxious. Like, even going to the toilet. Im going to try and stop. I will regularly blog stuff on here, when I feel the horrible urges or relapse. Its horrible. Its a horrible disease. I dont think people realise how bad it is. It makes you want to kill yourself.

I’ve just about had it with my binge eating tendencies. I have a terrible relationship with food. I am on a diet every day of my life and I either stick to the diet (about 80% of the time)or binge eat (about 20% of the time). I binge eat because I am so restricted and I restrict myself to make up for the binge eating. Even though I have never been overweight I am not happy with my body. I control my eating because I think that being thin will make me happy even though I know this is not the case.

I need to start appreciating my body the way it is and stop punishing myself for the unrealistic expectations that I create. Attempting to control my relationship with food has not only been unsuccessful but it has actually set me back by causing me to gain weight in the end.

I am going to overcome this. If anyone has any suggestions or any support to offer it would be really apreciated!

It’s something I’ve done for as long as I can remember. Comes in phases too. Along with the weight gain/loss :/

I spent the first 4 months of this year without a single binge. I never even thought about it really, until one day the thought popped into my head “I’ve not done that in ages”. Now I’m on my third week of constantly binging. It’s gotten to the point that I don’t really think about much else and even saw myself binging in a pub bathroom on crisps and nuts! Pretty pathetic.

However, tomorrow’s a new day and what I’d like most is to have people to talk to it about and help others if possible. It’s not something my friends or family know anything about as it’s something I’m ashamed of and that they wouldn’t really understand. Blah, so anyways, I’m inviting anyone who thinks they can help to speak up.

Cheers!

I had a bad day and was looking for some inspiration and I came across this site. I want to share my struggles with the world sometimes because otherwise I just get all mushed in my head and I never make any progress or work things out. So I googled and saw someone’s entry and it made me think that sharing my struggle was a good idea.

I find my eating issues difficult to talk about. I am not sure exactly what my plan is. I know I need a balanced approach that addresses stress and self love. I’ve read some books in the past but always shoved them aside because they were too hard to follow.

I am tired of fear and self loathing holding myself back.

I have never blogged about anything in my life. Also, I have never dealt with something that the majority of my personal support group doesn’t understand. I have been seeing a counselor for sometime and she is amazing. I am in the last leg of learning to love myself and not define myself by food. Its tough tho, being in university and dealing with this. I dont have the structure of a regular schedule, but I think once I have a grasp on this for good it will make me the best, and strongest person I can possibly be. That is what must keep me going… the will to become who I know I am without this addiction setting me back.

So like anyone I find good times and bad ones but I know when I look in the mirror and like what I see it makes all the difference. Aside from being an emotional binger I am learning that when I’m tired I eat. Anything everything it keeps me occupied to study work what ever and I feel like food will give me more energy. It does of course provide energy though its not a subsitutue for sleep. So my biggest advice to pass on I’ve learned in the past few months is STOP and THINK. What is your motivation, why? I find then I’m better at resisting food as a vice. And it feals great when I look back later and realise I resisted temptation. There’s always another challenge. But this time I did it

So like anyone I find good times and bad ones but I know when I look in the mirror and like what I see it makes all the difference. Aside from being an emotional binger I am learning that when I’m tired I eat. Anything everything it keeps me occupied to study work what ever and I feel like food will give me more energy. It does of course provide energy though its not a subsitutue for sleep. So my biggest advice to pass on I’ve learned in the past few months is STOP and THINK. What is your motivation, why? I find then I’m better at resisting food as a vice. And it feals great when I look back later and realise I resisted temptation. There’s always another challenge. But this time I did it