find a passion

i want to find something I really love and want to wake up to do everyday

I do the same thing every day, which is nothing. I wake up, go to class, come back home and basically wait until the next day to do it all over again. Sometimes I get so bored with my life that I get too depressed to do anything. My fiance will make suggestions, but I feel so depressed that nothing sounds good. I really wish there was something, anything, that I could find a passion for. I didn’t grow up with hobbies, my parents didn’t force me to do anything…now I don’t really know what I like..?

I like to sing. I don’t really know where to go with that.

I just want to feel some kind of purpose. I want to wake up and feel something calling my name, something that I just MUST do, you know? Right now I feel pretty useless, and it’s been that way for a while.

My therapist said I should do this as well a while back. I just find myself bored and have nothing to do, nothing that really excites me. I want to find something I could make a career out of, or at least be good at, something a could practice at that I really love. It drives me crazy because it seems like all my friends are good at something and love it. Will-is captain of the tennis team, Katie-all state-runner and captain of the field hockey team, Molly-captain of the Volleyball team, Brycen- captain of soccer and winter track teams, and Rob, just an absolute beast of a musician and drum major. I’m just sick of being an all around average person, theres nothing I’m remotely good at. And I wish I could find something to at least keep me occupied while I figure what I want to do with my life.

I have always been such a laid back person. I hardly ever get overly excited about things or too depressed about things either. For once in my life I would like to find something that I just love.

No more blah days! Find something to be passionate about and potentially turn that into a new career.

I want to figure out what things make me think the way I do. Which things make me love and feel free. I can feel that it’s something huge, it just hasn’t made it’s self known to me yet.

anything that makes my soul rush.