take more care of myself

eating better this week, but still room for improvement. key thing is to sleep more now, thats a huge issue at the moment and I know I will feel a whole lot better if I get enough sleep.

getting better at this i think.

after writing my last entry almost, I got a call to say I was to have my surgery on the 11th. It is of course the same day as my eldest daughters leavers dinner (prom) but at least it is happening. Now if I could only shake this massive sinus I seem to have acquired…...

I’m due to have some minor surgery that incorporates some exploratory work that I need done with my gynie issues that have been troubling me for the entire year now. As my luck would have it they rang me and said I was due to go in the week that I would be away on holidays in Victoria: a holiday already booked and paid for so I had to forgo my spot on the public list. Thinking that I would only have to wait a week after I got back..I was top of the list afterall, over a month later, here I am still waiting. {sigh}

It’s really affecting my mental health being unwell all the time and my sleep is erratic, I’m moody and miserable. Hence not being on here at all really. So hard to be so positive when one just doesn’t feel well.

So I know that it will happen. And happen soon and then next year I have resolved myself to have the big op that is needed and I will finally feel free and hopefully back to my normal self. I’ve taken out private health cover so I don’t have to go public for it and it will be in August hopefully.

Things I have been doing to take more care of myself is change our weekly eating plan to incorporate at least two meat free days per week..if not three as well as two fish days. It’s been good and I’ve enjoyed the change in diet. I’ve been going to the hairdressers to have my hair dyed which is such a treat for me and even been having my eyebrows waxed and tinted! Woot go me!

and bought some fero-gradumet (iron tablets) and some valerian forte. I need to combat this lack of energy I have and I have a sneaky suspicion that my iron levels are low (they usually are and I can probably attribute alot of my lethargy and feeling of unwellness to it).

The valerian forte is to combat my insomnia I am having. Too much going on with my health and our move that is stopping me from sleeping properly and of course that creates a further cycle of lethargy etc.

In two weeks I’m hoping there will be a new me :)

I think I have fibroids or cysts. I can’t win healthwise it would seem!!! I’ve had quite a bit of severe lower pelvic pain and feels as though something is there. The pain comes and goes but is now there more often than not. I’ve had the chills on and off for the last two weeks and felt ultra crapola. So off to see the doc and I’m going to get my overdue pap smear done at the same time! yay! (not yay for the ickiness of a pap smear but yay for finally getting off my but and getting it done).

to eat. It’s not that I don’t remember I guess. I just can’t seem to stomach food first thing in the morning and then on the days that I work, I rush off with only coffee in my belly and by lunch time I am just about fainting. Which is so stupid I know. And unless I play catch up and eat a huge lunch or have something for afternoon tea, by dinner time I am so cranky and agitated because I’m so hungry.

I will NOT do this again. I will remember to look after me and nourish my body at the times it needs to be nourished.

Executive B’s and St Johns Wort for the last week. I can already notice a slight improvement in my ability to contain my stress levels and not snap at the slightest thing or completely freak out! Yay me

from take more care of my appearance to take more care of myself. It’s more fitting with where I am at in life. I really need to start back on the track of being healthy in my body and my mind. First step is to get back on the vitamins. So I’m taking Executive B’s, St Johns Wort, Fish Oil and Gluoscomine (spelling error there I know).

Next week I’m going to dye my hair. I’ve desperately wanted to go to the hairdressers but funds don’t allow for it until after the 20th but I’m off to Victoria on the 13th and my cheeky friend who is a photographer and is doing a photo shoot of Tara on the Friday is going to take a pic of me too. So no grey hairs is an absolutely MUST. So I’ll just buy another packet (I already have one) and give it a go.

And I’ve also decided despite being so unwell for so long, not going to the gym isn’t helping and even just gentle gentle exercise there is better than none and can only benefit me rather than harm me. So back to the gym this week too!

I’m going to dye my hair again. I had bought a dark brown/caramel type of colour but I’m not game enough so I think I might buy a blonde one instead. I wish I was confident enough to do some highlights as well. But I know I’d stuff it up for sure. I have been making an effort with what I wear and today (aside from above mentioned greys) I had a good hair day. I think losing just that little bit of weight has helped me feel good about my appearance too.