overcome depression

I take anti-depressants, they don’t seem to work well. I’ve been this way for too long.

I’m still experiencing withdrawals from Cipralex, including dizziness, nausea and numb skin. It just goes to show how strong that stuff was. I hope this is the right thing to do.

I know this is something I’ll deal with for the rest of my life. Maybe my decision to stop taking cipralex is not the best one, especially in my current situation, but I can’t help but feel it’s doing more bad than good at the moment, like it’s run its course and there’s nothing more it can do for me. I strongly feel that I should give it a try, though.

Some days are better than others. The past two weeks have been bad. I’ve been entertaining thoughts of throwing myself off of bridges and such. I never would, mind you, but most people fantasize about becoming rock stars or monarchs while I’m dreaming of arsenic (and old mace?). This is the one thought I wanted to avoid.

I wish there were 12 steps to becoming happy that would gaurantee overnight success. 35 years is far too long to be unhappy.

I’ve decided to cut down on the meds for a bit and see if it clears my head any. I was beginning to plateau on them. I guess when you’re on meds you forget how miserable you were before you started taking them, so if in a couple of weeks I start feeling lousy again I’ll go to the doctor and ask for his opinion. Maybe I need to change medication or come off it completely.

I’ve read about so many different ways one can overcome or at least cope with depression, and they all seem like sounds advice, but I just can’t get myself out of this mindset. It’s like I have the way but not the will. I have so many excuses not to pursue my dreams; I’m too old, I’m too tired, I don’t deserve it, it won’t really make me happy, it’ll take too much time, too much work, it’ll be too much of a drain on my soul etc. Meanwhile I’m losing touch with myself more and more.

I’ve been to therapy usuccessfully and am on medication that mostly just makes me sleep. I don’t know what else to try. There are days when I feel really positive but it quickly passes because I can’t keep up the momentum.

I don’t know what else to try.

I understand that taking an online quiz doesn’t replace a diagnosis from a mental health professional, but I had to know if I met the quiz’s requirements.

Do you feel sad or irritable?
I wouldn’t be taking this quiz if otherwise.

Have you lost interest in activities once enjoyed?
No, but my favorite activities are those that I enjoy alone. These include hiking, jogging…

Have you experienced changes in weight or appetite?
No

Have you experienced changes in sleeping pattern?
Yes, all the time. I tend to wake up every night around 1 or 2AM.
But this is due to constant horrible nightmares!

Do you have feelings of guilt?
Yes, all the time. Then again, I was raised Catholic so I’m used to having feelings of guilt for no apparent reason. :p

Are you unable to concentrate, remember things, or make decisions?
No
...wait, I wasn’t able to concentrate on the question. What was my answer? I tend to work on projects in short time frames because I get distracted easily. So maybe I do.

Have you experienced fatigue or loss of energy?
No

Do you feel hopeless, or worthless?
Yes

Have you had thoughts of suicide or death?
I know that I will NEVER act on suicide. I always tend to think of Dante’s ‘The Divine Comedy’ when I think of suicide, and I know that I want to meet my life purpose of philanthropic work. However, I do not fear death. By the way, I find it hard to see myself ascending to “terrestrial paradise”.

My score indicated that I may be suffering from clinical depression. Surprise! I have visited the uni psychologist years ago and I thought I was “cured”, but maybe ignoring these symptoms have made my case worse.

I’ve always felt insignificant though, since as long as I can remember. I believe it’s due to the constant bullying and teasing throughout elementary, being betrayed by best friends, being rejected from all love interests, never have been asked out. I tried going out and socializing with others, but for some reason I have always found socializing to be difficult. My social skills were never worked on because as college students figured out their identity, I worked full time. I didn’t have time to mature emotionally and socialize. And when I did, I always felt that I can be doing something more productive with my time. I’ve always had low self esteem due to not having anyone build my confidence, so I always depended on myself to pursue my goals. After all, no one else will believe for you if you don’t believe in yourself first. But as I get older, I think about how I should be in a different situation, how I should’ve met my professional goals seven years ago. How I would like to have someone around who cares and genuinely love me for who I am. But I’d imagine that someone to end up cheating on me, so I’m not meant to be happy. I strongly believe that I will end up old and alone while the only children I will come across are those whom I intend to help. Maybe I should be a martyr… if I can carry my guilt, I can easily carry the guilt of the world on my shoulders.

For me being depressed means you can spend all day in bed, and still not get a good night’s rest

^{Judith Guest}

I really need to do this.
Last year i’d managed to get over both my depression and anxiety, they were still there but i was in control instead of them, but then this year started bad, i lost my nan in march and everythings been different, i’m depressed daily and can’t find the will to do anything. I want to get back to the girl i was last year and lose this girl i’ve become! It’s like i’m watching my life sink deeper into the black sea of depression. I don’t want to cry every night, i don’t want to feel lonely, i don’t want to feel lost! I’m just not sure how i did it last year and not completely sure how to do it this time.
But i’m determined, i’ve lived the life i can live and i want it back.

I’m 15 years old.. and I’m usually a pretty normal person. There are times, however, that I get upset. Sometimes not even over anything in particular.. it’s really strange. When it first started I thought it was just hormones, but it’s gone way beyond that. Honestly, I’m just ready to be a normal girl again. I don’t want to come home every night and cry about things that aren’t going to matter later in life. It’s time to change the way I feel. That’s why I added this as a goal, I suppose.

this week is terrible….
nothing I want to do
nothing to be interested
just lay in bed and play with cell phone

is it just because of medicine reduce?

I have suffered depression for over 2 years and, well, really sucks