Get my evil little mind to accept and embrace the concept of "unless everybody wins, no-one wins"

My mind has finally given up turning the little cogs of evil thought around in my mind. Not because I somehow made myself all nice, but because I realised the people in question deserved it, and through their own fucked up behaviour will have plenty of problems. But now that I’ve realised that and don’t have anything to do with them anymore there are no problems for me. Next time I’ll listen better to my evil side. It seems pretty smart about these things.

Well, as I mentioned, my brain has been feeling particularly unsympathetic to the happiness of others. Why is it that my thoughts keep straying to images of me, happy and triumphant at the expense of those around me?

I know in my brain that that just wouldn’t make me happy really but something inside me won’t give it up. Probably an insecurity thing I think. Time to get out the old “Overcoming low self esteem” manual maybe?

But then maybe part of the reason I’ve been noticing these evil thoughts is that I’ve been paying a lot more attention to what I’m thinking about. Gone are the days when my mind could just run around out of control thinking crazy horrible thoughts about me and other people. Now I’m kicking my thought processes into shape, and such behaviour will not be tolerated!

Always the first step to sorting something out though is recognising what’s going on. So it’s good that I recognise I have the bad thoughts, now I just have to figure out how to stop them.

My brain is feeling particularly evil and contrary this morning! Maybe it’s because I have to finish a presentation for this afternoon and I’ve eaten too much chocolate…