stop drinking coffee

I started on the 2nd of June
I thought i was going to die at first but i’m doing pretty well. I didn’t even take painkillers today!

For a while I’d kicked coffee altogether except this quarter’s been rough. I feel like I’m not getting enough sleep and I’ve turned to coffee once again. Luckily I haven’t been having the same bad effects… still, I want to try to kick it again.

I drink far too much coffee these days and I don’t even particularly enjoy it.
It’s now 11.53 and I haven’t had 1 drop of coffee. I think I’ll go get a starbucks in the afternoon and that’s it. I feel tired, but that’s probably because I didn’t sleep well which most likely was because I’d had too much coffee.

a headache.

I don’t want to be dependent on coffee to wake me up in the morning. I am a zombie without it. I can’t function. I crave it like a drug! I know it is healthier to clean out my body and give it up. I just can’t seem to let it go completely. I have tried to suffer through quitting cold turkey-that was a painful experience to say the least. I think my body is unhealthy so if I can just give my body the support it needs without coffee I think I will feel better than I have ever thought possible. I want to do this!!!

After all the effort I have put in NOT drinking my morning coffee, two months, I have just realized that I don’t miss it and actually I don’t think I LOVED coffee as much as I thought… I used to put so much sugar to sweeten it up that it wasn’t the cofee taste I was enjoying but the sweetness! So I did it!!!

I do this for a while, but if I have one cup again I start craving it and I know too much messes with me and stops me getting to sleep. So I’m giving up altogether.

I really want to stop drinking coffee, because it has wrecked my teeth, and it also hurts my left chest, it gets all tight whenever I drink it and it feels like the tissue in my chest is wearing down, also im sick of feeling buzzed out on coffee all the time i just want to feel fresh and clean and not have to have caffeine constantly, I’m so sick of it!

So, I’m on my way to kicking out caffeinated beverages altogether by substituting tea!! Well, yes, I’m drinking tea with caffeine (my preferred is a cup of Tazo Joy tea in the morning which is a blend of Black and Green which both have natural caffeine) but the caffeine in tea is nowhere near the amount in coffee.

The main difference is, I haven’t had a panic attack in a while. The last time was one week ago, which was, I think, the 2nd day having only caffeine from tea. The whole day I was really nervy, having waves of mild to moderate panic attacks. I think it was a bad combination of withdrawl symptoms (because I would normally have 2-3 shots a day), lack of sleep, and a certain time of month ending (for some reason the last 2 days or so give me just as much hell as the week before it starts). Anyway, that day was really, really bad, I was even having occasional heart palpitations all day. I mean I would get heart palpitations before (comes with being an extremely anxious person) but nothing like that. Since that day though, I’ve been feeling good. More energized, I think.

The next step is to ween myself off of excessive caffeine through tea. I have one cup in the morning but then I also have a habit of having a cup of tea in the afternoon (like, a starbucks London Fog Tea Latte during lunch, or another cup of joy tea when I get home) and even that amount of caffeine is sometimes enough to keep me up at night.

On kind of a tangent, this is the reason that I keep myself away from ANYTHING that could become addictive. I have an addictive personality. I mean, there are a MILLION other reasons that I am extremely anti tobacco, alcohol and drugs, but that’s one personal reason why I will never smoke even one cigarette, drink even one beer, or do one joint of marijuana. It’s bad enough just being addicted to caffeine.

Its day 2 with no coffee, and I am completely out of it. I had some yerba mate, and I know that it has caffeine, but it’s NOTHING like the effect that coffee has. So, I am super tired and lethargic. All I want to do is eat and sleep. I am starting to question whether or not I can get anything done without coffee! Strangely, I don’t really have a headache. Anyone else have the extreme lethary and out-of-it-ness? I can’t complete a simple task.