rediscover myself

High school and college life were fun… but now that they’re over, it got me thinking “Who am I again?” It was fun to discover how many people have the same interests, same problems, same goals like I did, but amidst all the sameness, I somehow feel as if I’ve lost that part of me that makes me different and unique from all the others.

I want to discover who I am apart from the expectations of the world.

Since having my daughter 10 months ago my life has changed so much for the better. She is amazing and has taught me so much already. Somehow though I’ve completely lost my sense of self since becoming a mother. I don’t know what I enjoy, I don’t take the time to do things for myself or by myself and I struggle with feeling selfish for even thinking about doing any of those things. I feel like my marriage has suffered a bit from this and I think my husband is in the same boat as me. On top of all of this, we moved out of state when my daughter was only 4 months old and we have no family and few friends where we’ve moved to. Life has certainly changed for us but that doesn’t mean we can’t recreate it to be whatever we want for ourselves now. I think we just need to take the time to rediscover what our interests are now.

This is the goal that probably has me more frustrated. I feel like I have become this wonderful mother to my kids, but that is it. I want to feel more me! Do the things I love, discover some new things, have some time to myself and with my husband. Feels like I´m losing my essence. It´s hard to do it because of time.

It’s a sad thing, that most venture through life without truly discovering the true person within who lies dormant and in darkness waiting. It is my belief that the true self is the collection of many selves discovered.

I recently had someone ask me, “What happened to the person I used to know?” My immediate response was, “She died; just the same as this self will die.”

...Well… It’s time for “this” self to say goodbye. I’m on the journey to REDISCOVER MYSELF. Who’s with me?!?

I do believe that it is safe to mark this as done. And man that feels amazing.

I have gotten a little lost along the way…....

so close.

I used to be blonde and quiet , then I was black haired and morbid , now I’m ginger haired and crazy :) but i still have morbid and quiet thoughtful moments – don’t change yourself , evolve

I’ve kind of been doing this without trying lately. It’s an amazing feeling.

I want to write a list of things I enjoy and that I want to get back into my life.

Is going to be the year where I start trying to do everything I love. I’m excited.