Forget the past and ask for what I want without feeling anxious or guilty.

I fell in love when I was 17 to a boy I dated two years previous. It wasn’t a matter of finding him again, or whatnot. He had stayed in my life all along, dancing around the edges. We seemed incapable of getting rid of each other.

I have a boyfriend of 6 months at the moment. We met this past year in college, and agreed to be nonexclusive for the summer.

The first night back, I saw Matt. For years we’ve just walked and talked, but never about anything that particularly mattered to either of us. But I changed that. I just told myself to do it, and I did.

I told him the truth. My boyfriend and I are not exclusive because of him, and that I wanted him. By any definition, and without any set standard.

And you know what? He finally admitted to loving me back. And that is worth more than anything in the world.

Ask for what you want. Even if you don’t get the answer you want, you’ll know you tried with all your fucking heart. No regrets.

YEAH

To keep in mind… ’’“Style is knowing who you are, what you want to say, and not giving a damn.”- Gore Vidal

Because I believe in my ability to stick to my values, no matter what anybody thinks!

I must focus on what I can do today to make things better.
I must stop using my rearview mirror to guide myself or I will crash.
I must decide what is most important to me and take massive action each day to make things better even if it doesn’t look as if it’s working…

Whatever has’not worked out in the past has nothing to do with what I can do today and what I do now is what is shaping my future. Right now I must be a friend to myself and not forget that I am the most valuable person I know. I can’t beat myself up about what happened to our family for the sake of money. I must focus on solutions instead of problems. I must see problems as challenges, opportunities to grow and overcome all obstacles however formidable they may appear!